Friday, October 31, 2008
I also am so *on* when I'm pre-menstrual, there are many yucky things about that but my thoughts are clear, I'm funny and I'm so serious on my soapboxes that I'm awesome. You wouldn't know that in my writing, as I have stated this isn't my strong suit, I am actively working on expressing my thoughts in the written word. My blog gets the very watered down version of what I really think and it's probably best that way.
Last weekend I was spot on, I was discussing politics, racism and unschooling at a friend's house. There were other people there that don't really know me and I told my friend that I hope I didn't scare them. She said no it was fine they just don't know you and now they do :)
So now my estrogen surge is over, this is a good thing. I took my blood pressure before I went to the bath and it was 97/66 with a heart rate of 61 and I wasn't even sitting that long, I've been up and down all night.
A far cry from a week ago at 143/98, HR 103, wow I'm A-OK right now. Although I did get a spike yesterday due to the cell phone fiasco it was nothing compared to the estrogen.
Thank you Deanne for putting things in perspective and for caring so much. I admit that I am a little pissed that the phone company won't wipe out all of the charges. I believe they should and my husband and I are having a tif over it. He says it's not their fault well shit it isn't ours, we didn't make the damn charges...
Ok I'm getting all pissed off again I guess I need to let it go I just wonder where the money is coming from to pay for this loser charging up our bill.
Maybe I should call Barack, he'll take care of it...
Ok I stopped myself from progressing I said this was mild.
I took the kids to the homeschool park day, they dressed up and we all brought snacks to share. The kids had a great time and so did the moms. I just met these ladies a few weeks ago and they are really nice. You know last week I was a hormonal high blood pressure mess.
So now we have one more soccer game at an ungodly hour and Cassie's birthday and my mom is coming to visit.
Also Jason said he wants to get the house in sellable condition and move out of the city for more land and a smaller mortgage.
We have lots to do to make that a reality.
Houses in our neighborhood sell very fast, I'm sure it's the level, you know middle income. Our house needed a complete overhaul and we are probably half way through it. We haven't done much with it in the past year so now it's time.
It's probably good that I haven't unpacked everything.
I still have my clothes in a box, well the box is broken out the one side, even my clothes won't go in the box, LOL! I have never been in the box, I just can't conform to anyone or anything, I am definitely unique, I am me, I got that going for me :)
If you could talk to me for a while you would know what I mean.
So this is probably boring you to tears, sometimes I am better when I'm fired up.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Sorry for the confusion I stated it at the end.
The most eye-opening civics lesson I ever had was while teaching third grade. The presidential election was heating up and some of the children showed an interest. I decided we would have an election for a class president. We would choose our nominees. They would make a campaign speech and the class would vote.
To simplify the process, candidates were nominated by other class members. We discussed what kinds of characteristics these students should have. We got many nominations and from those, Jamie and Olivia were picked to run for the top spot.
The class had done a great job in their selections. Both candidates were good kids. I thought Jamie might have an advantage because he got lots of parental support. I had never seen Olivia’s mother. The day arrived when they were to make their speeches. Jamie went first. He had specific ideas about how to make our class a better place. He ended by promising to do his very best. Every one applauded.
He sat down and Olivia came to the podium. Her speech was concise. She said, “If you will vote for me, I will give you ice cream.” She sat down. The class went wild. “Yes! Yes! We want ice cream.”
She surely would say more. She did not have to. A discussion followed. How did she plan to pay for the ice cream? She wasn’t sure. Would her parents buy it or would the class pay for it. She didn’t know. The class really didn’t care. All they were thinking about was ice cream. Jamie was forgotten. Olivia won by a land slide.
Every time Barack Obama opens his mouth he offers ice cream, and fifty percent of America reacts like nine year olds. They want ice cream. The other fifty percent know they’re going to have to feed the cow.
I got this from someone else and don't know who wrote it but it is good.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Jason called the phone company and it turns out there are $400 in text messages and downloads in the past week.
This was stolen out of our car, not exactly sure where but I've only been to a handful of places so it could've happened at our house too.
This isn't the first time we have had something stolen from our car or our property.
We work hard and we don't have much and to just have someone take it from you is brutal. We don't steal from others, there is no excuse for stealing.
You know that this society is being bred for entitlement, see what you want and take it. You don't have to work hard to achieve it you are entitled to it!
It is sad line of bullshit for sure.
How are we supposed to cover the costs of a new phone, business cards, advertising and everything that has that phone number on it? We have to pay for this asshole's charges on our phone!
The phone company is working with us but they can't/won't credit it all to us.
The police will come over to take a report, we want this guy caught and arrested and put on his record.
It is unacceptable to take what doesn't belong to you.
Ugh! My blood pressure is going up I have to calm down.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Yesterday this little guy was trying to get in the window, as you can see my windows need to be washed.
He is so cute I wanted to keep him.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
- Contemplate :: think
- In the house :: we live
- Classical :: music
- Quest :: for freedom
- Best friend :: Jason
- 1991 :: I was 20 years old living in California
- Never will :: I ever be a liberal democrat
- Fool :: socialist
- Unhappy :: sad
- Best man :: who's the best man for the job
Friday, October 24, 2008
Today was the park day with some homeschoolers and I was trying to relax. I just met a couple of these women and here I was dumping my problems on them... They were really nice, I like them, one mom is getting her BA in alternative medicine and wants to be a midwife.
It was a nice time and it does feel good to meet people that you feel like you can just be yourself around, I don't think I scared them. Of course we didn't talk about too many hot topics, must ease into that.
So we left the park and went to Kroger and then headed home, my heart was racing and I was getting a headache.
I tried to lay down but knew that I had to get Cassie to soccer practice very soon.
The nurse called and confirmed what my dear husband said, it sounds like hormones...
Oh don't worry he always tells me I don't listen to him...
So she gave me a few things to try and also told me to take another BP pill.
I did that right before I left for soccer, I was feeling okay while we were there.
I also had another homeschool mom to chat with and we were talking about hormones because I mentioned peri-menopause and she said that someone else just said that to her.
We had fun, she has a great sense of humor.
When we got home I was feeling *drugged* and finally my BP got down to normal.
Oh my gosh, this is insane, too much estrogen, anyone?!!!
The nurse said this should pass and wants me to keep track of symptoms and dates. I need to make sure I use the progesterone cream religiously and I also am taking Estro-Logic, it's an herbal supplement to balance hormones.
So I'm not crazy I'm just a little hormonal.
I admit to being scared, high blood pressure is scary and it doesn't feel good.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Learning through Living is an unschooling and respectful parenting blog and it is also about me and things that matter to me.
Well now lets talk about me, shall we?
Awhile back I posted an entry asking if everything can be blamed on hormones.
Well I am here to tell you that YES, EVERYTHING can be blamed on hormones!
My husband is a much better keeper of my traits than I am. He tells me that I did the same thing last month. I guess I tend to forget my atrocities from month to month.
The reason I'm writing about this is that the last 3 days I have been extremely bloated, I have digestive issues but this is severe. I also tend to crave salt not sweet, like I want mustard and pickle juice, weird, I know.
The last few days my heart rate has been fast, I've been feeling weird, like anxious, stressed, hyper, and now my blood pressure is elevated.
Some of you know that I found out a few months ago that I have high blood pressure. I am losing weight and exercising, I have lost 24 pounds and my BP has been fine, I am on medication though. My goal is to lose 50 pounds and get off the drugs.
So I have been on meds for at least 2 1/2 months and my BP has been great. I bought a machine and I take it a few times a day.
I guess last month I had a few spikes that I didn't record and now I'm having spikes and Jason says it's my hormones. My doctor believes I'm in peri-menopause and they did say it could affect BP, the last time I was there in August.
I have an appointment Nov. 5th, the day after the world better do the right thing...
Ok so I can't help myself :)
I need to keep track of my symptoms better so that I can see the pattern and relate it to my doc and ease my mind. Now my numbers are not emergent or life threatening but definitely much higher than they should be.
Jason said just take your BP next week and you will see it will be fine, I hope so.
I have to learn to deal with stress better it's one major area that I struggle with.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
"Biden to Supporters: 'Gird Your Loins', For the Next President 'It's Like Cleaning Augean Stables'"By Matthew Jaffe ABC News' Political Radar
October 20, 2008
Sen. Joe Biden, D-Del., on Sunday guaranteed that if elected, Sen. Barack Obama., D-Ill., will be tested by an international crisis within his first six months in power and he will need supporters to stand by him as he makes tough, and possibly unpopular, decisions.
"Mark my words," the Democratic vice presidential nominee warned at the second of his two Seattle fundraisers Sunday. "It will not be six months before the world tests Barack Obama like they did John Kennedy. The world is looking. We're about to elect a brilliant 47-year-old senator president of the United States of America. Remember I said it standing here if you don't remember anything else I said. Watch, we're gonna have an international crisis, a generated crisis, to test the mettle of this guy."
"I can give you at least four or five scenarios from where it might originate," Biden said to Emerald City supporters, mentioning the Middle East and Russia as possibilities. "And he's gonna need help. And the kind of help he's gonna need is, he's gonna need you - not financially to help him - we're gonna need you to use your influence, your influence within the community, to stand with him. Because it's not gonna be apparent initially, it's not gonna be apparent that we're right."
Just another reason to not vote for Obama, the terrorists are plotting and waiting to see if he wins.
You have to actually go to Obama's site and it has a small video of untruths and there is a spot to put in your annual income and deductions. It only had 3+ for exemptions, of course we have 6. It also asked for how much we owe on our mortgage , I left that blank. It's not relevant and you know that spyware could be watching, LOL!
Anyhoo it puts up Obama and McCain with a dollar amount next to it. So according to this calculation the difference for us is $3, yes I said $3. Wow Barack, thanks so much, NOT!!!! You can keep it!
We don't even want a tax cut, we just don't want a tax increase and apparantly we have moved into a higher bracket. My husband is making a little bit more than last year, you know every little bit gets taxed my friends.
Some people don't care especially the liberal left wing Hollywood. If Obama really wants to *spread the wealth*, he can share some of his $150,000,000 he raised in September. Why spend all of that money on hate ads for McCain? Give it to the poor Barack, please share it with us...
With our so called bad economy somebody is sure raking in the dough, possibly from unsure sources too, things that make you go hmmmmm....
He is lying, there is no tax break for 95% of Americans when 40% don't even pay taxes.
I am appalled at all of his blind followers, this man is freaking me out, he gives off terrible vibes. Don't be fooled, his change is not the right change, full blown socialism is not the direction this country needs to go.
I'm just baffled!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
- Magical :: World of Disney
- Shrimp :: on the barbie (I do not eat shrimp)
- Project Runway :: a TV show that I have never watched
- Economy :: isn't as bad as they say and will recover strong, well as long as Obama doesn't win
- Porch :: swing, front porch, porch light
- State of affairs :: sad state of affairs in this country right now
- .com :: internet, that song free credit report .com comes to mind
- Fifty cents :: two quarters, half dollar
- Ripping :: tearing us apart
- Bull :: shit
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
This is appalling and a sad state our country is still in.
This election is about principles and the fundamental differences between the candidates, it's not about race. I can sum it up very simply:
Socialism or Capitalism, you choose.
Obama could be as white as sour cream or purple for all I care and he would not get my vote. Please remember he has a white mother, he is only half black.
McCain could be black or green or blue and he would still get my vote.
I am not a racist, I don't care what color your skin is, if we are going to be friends it's because of the person you are.
So because you are white and vote for McCain you are a racist but if you are black and vote for Obama you aren't.
Pure and simple.
I was ok with clothes for the summer but now that temps are starting to go down I really need some pants. I ordered two pairs and used their sizing chart by my measurements.
My pants arrived today and they are way too BIG!
My husband can't figure out how that is a problem.
Well it is a good thing but it is a problem because I don't have any pants.
I'm going to find where a store is and see if I can exchange them it would cost too much money to return them.
For the inquiring minds, I've lost 22 pounds now, boy it is going slow, but it's going :)
I have held back more than you know, except the few of you who read here and actually know me.
I have been trying to take the attitude of planting seeds and not trying to insult or offend anyone in particular.
As with all public blogs my google hits come from various places searching for different things and they end up here. I know a few blogs I read have posted about the odd hits they get. I do have a few frequent topics that get a lot of readers who aren't unschooling or looking for that kind of message.
My hopes in relating a few of my political beliefs is to plant seeds of doubt in the Obama factor and seeds of hope. We truly can't afford an Obama presidency monitarily or worldwide, I believe terrorists are plotting as we speak.
This post is about the sheer fact that right this minute I have serious PMS, oh yes I do and I'm not even due for a week yet.
My hormones bring on good and bad traits. I am so deliberate in my purpose when it comes to hot buttons and at the same time I have no tolerance for stupidity and little things bother me.
There is an article going around a few of the yahoo groups I'm on about anti- schooling, and while it isn't really unschooling it is hopeful that the message is hitting mainstream America.
Although mainstream America really sucks when it comes to education and parenting and politics... Someone has to get the word out about alternatives to the mainstream.
In the same respect someone has to expose the truth about Obama and all of his associates and plans for socializing and taking over America as we know it and love it.
I am patriotic, I love this country and I love freedom, and I am very Libertarian leaning in my views of government. Although my husband tells me that many of my views are true conservative views. The party I always vote for except for when I voted for Perot needs to find their stones and stand up for what is right.
I believe that Palin has those stones and that is why I like her and that is why she is hated. She has balls, something many men don't have! I have been told many times in my life that I have them too, maybe it's high time I am true to myself even if it makes others uncomfortable.
I respect people who stand up and stand out and buck the system, rock the boat and don't conform!
There are some congressional seats open for this term and I hope that we get people in there who don't take this as a career but take this as working for the people by the people.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Since when is it an entitlement to sit on your ass and expect the government to take care of you?
I realize that the government caused this problem in the first place, I believe it goes back to Roosevelt and The New Deal. Possibly even back to Woodrow Wilson. Remember I went to public school so anything of value I have had to learn on my own :)
I'm not a history buff, I have just begun to learn about politics and the process in the last 16 years but even more in the last 8.
While any program could have it's merits in the beginning it gets blown out of proportion and used and abused.
Obama believes in big government, he believes in more taxes and more spending. He stands for all things that are counterproductive to a free market society.
I am in complete disapproval of congress and this *bailout* plan. Wall street and the Dow keeps dropping because the government interfered, they should have stayed out of it, they should have let the market recover on it's own. Of course the government caused that too with affirmitive action for housing, WTF????
If we level the playing field, spread the wealth, take away from those who earn it and give to those who don't, we are producing a society where noone cares and nobody wants to achieve. People will not try to excel because their success will be punished.
Paying taxes is NOT patriotic, it's a crime, a rip off. It is the government stealing from us without our consent and spending our money without our approval.
Obama wants to control the market, he wants more regulation and more taxes and more spending. Like McCain said tonight you can't just throw money at everything and expect to fix it.
Like my pal Reagan said:
" Government is not the solution to our problem, government IS the problem."
I wasn't old enough to vote for Reagan.
Wake up America!
Smell the taxes, smell the intervention, smell more taxes, more laws and more government regulation, hell smell your feet, just seek the truth, embrace reality, please do not send us into full blown socialism. We already have a democratically controlled Congress and it's been that way for 2 years, stick Obama in there and it's all over, life as we know it is gone.
We need more people like Joe the plumber, Jason the mechanic, Travis the electrician, Stacy the contractor, Dave the carpenter, Bob the computer programmer, Jamie the restaurant manager, Lynn the nurse etc. etc. etc.
(I don't know Joe personally but it feels like I do)
Yes, these are real hard working people that I know. I know many more and I am just trying to establish the base for America's workforce.
It's the middle class that drives this country, it's small business owners, it's supply and demand. Obama claims that he will cut taxes for 95% of Americans. Have you read this? Do you know it's a lie? As it is 1/3 of Americans don't even pay taxes, but he wants to send them a check every year.
Small businesses will not be able to afford the taxes, big corporations will leave just like Anheuser-Busch did, I believe they allowed themselves to be sold and are now stationed in Belgium where the taxes are low. More and more companies will leave because of the tax burden that Obama wants to put on them.
What happened to We the people, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness?
The government is supposed to be FOR the people BY the people not for the government by the government.
I am sick of big government, I am sick of social programs, I am sick of lazy ass Americans and hateful left winged liberals.
More to come...
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
If it looks like socialism and smells like socialism...RUN!!!!!!!
Any of various theories or systems of social organization in which the means of producing and distributing goods is owned collectively or by a centralized government that often plans and controls the economy.
The stage in Marxist-Leninist theory intermediate between capitalism and communism, in which collective ownership of the economy under the dictatorship of the proletariat has not yet been successfully achieved.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Tonight we met in person but we have known each other online for 1 1/2 years so it was just like old friends hanging out.
Wow! We just ate and talked and the kids played and it was just so cool.
Julie you are so awesome! I loved just sitting here talking, and your kids are so cool.
Brennan told me that it seemed like he met Kullen before, he wasn't a stranger, he was a kid he already knew.
That speaks volumes coming from Brennan, very comfortable, very real.
Cassie was so excited to meet real live teenage girls and Jared was just excited to meet all of you.
Kieran and Jason had a great time too :)
I love the internet, we would have never met otherwise.
It is so wonderful to know that the person behind those cyber words is a living breathing human being.
Cassie, Kaitlyn, Kendra, Julie, Stephanie, Kullen, Jared
All of the kids, we took these right before they left, it was late and everyone was still smiling :)
I don't even know what to say, you guys rock I loved just hangin out and being ourselves.
I keep writing and deleting ...ugh it's 3:18 am and I must get to bed :)
Love ya girlfriend, talk soon!
Monday, October 13, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
- Zoo :: elephants
- Neighborhood :: kids
- Salute :: military
- Immortality :: living forever
- Dominion :: control
- Rhonda :: help me Rhonda
- Parties :: political
- Prince of Darkness :: evil
- Garbage :: can
- Standard :: stick shift
Friday, October 10, 2008
You're Not Exactly a Hippie...
While you're not a hippie, you've got the spirit of one.
Like most hippies, you have deep beliefs and unusual interests.
You may not buy into hippie fashions, music, or heavy drug use.
But at heart, you are a free spirit and suspicious of the status quo.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
We are spending our sportsless week cleaning and decluttering. The house has gone to pot and I am doing spring cleaning in the fall.
I have worked really hard the past two days and my body hurts and I'm tired.
There is so much to do!
We will be having a visitor in the next week who I have been waiting to meet for what seems like forever, I will post pictures and give more details when it happens.
Also in early November my mom is coming for 4 days and she is staying with us, she'll be bunking with Cassie. I just cleaned her room today, it usually takes 2 days but I did it in a few hours, wow! She did help a bit too and now she is loving it, she told me she'll try to keep it clean until grandma comes :)
Also my aunt and uncle from NY will be visiting at the same time, they will stay in a hotel nearby.
We will be having Cassie's birthday party when they are all here too.
I have to get my house in order for a party and company and having grandma stay with us.
It's long overdue I have let things go for too long, I used to be so compulsive and my house used to be so clean.
I was sick for so long and then we have been playing sports and it's all I could do to keep up with daily stuff.
It just piled up so much that I have felt overwhelmed and didn't know where to begin.
I am better now and working on getting healthier everyday. I will just do what I can each day to get this house in shape.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
- Insight :: knowledge
- Irksome :: people
- Maybe :: someday
- Confirmation :: reservation
- Bib :: drop cloth
- Stop! :: California, that is how my son says I stop :)
- Lobster :: Maine
- Boys :: My house is full of them
- Fire away :: speak
- Give up :: defeat
1) Your name? Stephanie
The sexiest girl in the world
2) Your age? 37
#1) Number often used in fiction because it is inconspicuous: A prime number greater than 25 but less than 50.
******Just a little side note if you are my age and you write out thirty seven it isn't something that you want to publish.
3) One of your friends? Julie
a girl who talks too much but also very hottt!
omfgzz! shut up julie, your hot, lets make out ;)
5) Favorite color? Red
1) a communist
2) CCC tablet (Coricidin, OTC anti-tussive medicine)
1) "You reds!"
2) "He passed out on 48 reds (!)"
6) Birthplace? New York
Power that comes from diversity.... Pride that comes from making it to the top....
Nothing like the Big Apple.
7) Month of your birthday? May
cool; sexy; hot
i am so may
8) Last person you talked to? Jason
the only name that can be spelled through 5 months of the year.
J - July
A - August
O - October
N - November
"Jason is a very unique name"
9) What did you last eat? cake
kilo of cocaine.
"did you cut that cake"
10) Your nickname? Steph
another word for something so incredily beautiful it makes ur heart skip a beat.
chasematic: wow look at that super model!!
C dogg: yer shes steph alrite!!!
Chase: yer il take steph to the candy shop :)
Friday, October 03, 2008
You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a night owl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.