Sunday, November 30, 2008


I've decided to participate in the December blogroll to post everyday of the month.

The theme for December is THANKS!
Blogging on the theme is not required for inclusion on the blogroll.

Here's the link

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Sleepy :: me

  2. Thanksgiving :: apple pie

  3. Fifteen :: 3x5

  4. Authority :: question authority

  5. Bangs :: hair
  6. Curled :: up in a ball

  7. Young man :: my son

  8. Surprised :: wow

  9. Mistake :: we all make mistakes

  10. Handle it :: just deal

Boring! Well I have a cold, that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Luna Nina

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

It's all good

I have been so absorbed lately with my hormonal issues that I haven't been doing much blogging. Hell after my political rantings I'm trying to figure out how to get back to unschooling.

I mean our lives haven't changed, we live and learn everyday. We follow our interests, we read, play, watch tv, play games, create, explore, imagine, draw, build, cook, clean, live, laugh and love.

We work through our differences and work on respecting each other. I admit this isn't always easy especially when one child is just being tough and not wanting to see the other side. With everything in life we work through it.

Kids are so funny, Jared still sleeps with us and we asked him yesterday when we get him a bed does he want to share a room with his brothers or his sister. He looked at us and as serious as he could said, "We'll discuss this later."

Jason and I just laughed, it was so funny.

Hmmmm do you think he has heard that before?

I am so thankful to have such an awesome husband and kids.

I am so blessed!

They put up with my stuff.

Although I can't quite control my stuff lately, you know crying for no reason is really a pain...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Spit it out :: SAY IT!

  2. Shadow :: of the day

  3. Database :: computer

  4. Expression :: WTF?

  5. Boss :: Who's the boss?

  6. Baby :: doll

  7. Mystic :: pizza

  8. Kate :: and Leopold

  9. Boobies :: man's favorite toy

  10. Raid :: ant and roach spray

Luna Nina

Thursday, November 20, 2008

You know you are a hormonal freak when...

You burst out crying for no apparant reason.

Anyone seen The Holiday with Cameron Diaz?

That's me, I don't cry easy, I would go through the motions and try so hard but nothing would come out.

Well for the past few days I just start crying, ugh this is so out of character for me.

You can go from laughing to crying to snapping at your husband to being impatient with your kids at the drop of a hat.

Oh you are hungry again!

You're kidding right?

Feed yourself!

You crave salt.

You have anxiety.

You feel like you are freaking out.

You have blood pressure surges.

The clutter is getting to you.

You have cleaning spurts.

You have bitching spurts.

You wonder what the hell is wrong with you.

You drop things.

You run into things.

You can't remember shit.

You are an emotional roller coaster.

You get hot flashes. But never when you are cold and really want one.

Peri-menopause anyone?

I welcome been there done that advice or I'm with you support.

Pass the chocolate and don't forget the wine.

My dear husband told me to get a glass of wine, go take a hot bath and don't tell the kids. This was after I started bawling for no apparant reason a couple hours ago. He told me I was at my peak. Hallelujah get me off this damn mountain I need sanity, not some freakin roller coaster ride.

I should just embrace this right, enjoy the ride, life is a journey.

Welcome to my journey friends I bet you wish I was back on politics, HA HA probably not those of you on the opposite side!


As I look back I have been slowly progressing since I was 34, the last month has been the worst, I'm only 37.

I'm sure I have many more wonderful symptoms to share with you but right now I just want to get my damn period and move on!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Please stop :: so I can get off

  2. Move over :: get out of my way

  3. Sweet as :: molasses

  4. Bet :: gamble

  5. Mad about :: you

  6. It’s over :: "It's Already over now" Song by Red

  7. Intend to :: I intend to be free

  8. Blame :: don't blame me

  9. Jefferson :: Starship, Airplane, Thomas, George

  10. Heartless :: vindictive

Luna Nina

Saturday, November 15, 2008

An evening with moms

The homeschool group that I have been going to has decided to do a moms night once a month.

Tonight we met at a coffee shop that had live music.

I hardly ever leave the house without Jared, he brings new meaning to attachment parenting, but he is almost 6 1/2 and he has let me leave him twice this month.

I told him that just the moms would be there, no kids, he asked me about the dads. I told him the dads were staying home with the kids so the moms could meet.

He was ok with it :)

We had a great time, good conversation, we are still getting to know each other.

It's so funny because all I have ever done is try to make social networks for my kids but in the process I have met some great ladies.

We all get along and we are learning more about each other and accepting where we are at in life.

It was fun, I had a cafe mocha for my inquiring friends, if you can mix coffee and chocolate you are on to something wonderful.

Jared called me because I told him I would be an hour and it turned into two, we were just conversing freely.

He was so cute and told me he missed me and informed me that I missed Numb3rs, one of my favorite shows.

I told him it was ok, I would watch it online and I would be home soon.

It's nice to make friends, I am so alone in my beliefs sometimes that I can forget there are others out there who may just understand where I'm coming from.

Cassie is so excited because she is making new friends with all of the girls, she has been surrounded by boys all of her life.

Life is good, chocolate, coffee, friends, wine, I'm a happy camper :)

Now if my hormones would cooperate... LOL!

I won't bore you, I'm working on it, my hormones cause my blood pressure surges.

Oh joy!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

two pictures

We went to the zoo today, I love the zoo, I get to see all the cool animals and the best part is the elephants of course.

Here we are, all six of us. Jason is usually taking the picture so this time we got him in the picture. If you look above his head you see the giraffe, that guy was a ham, we were talking to him and he came right up to us and was posing. It's funny that he is in this picture.

This is me and my mom.
Yes she is young and beautiful :)
It's great to have her here visiting.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Fun workshop

We went to Build-a-Bear workshop for the first time. Cassie wanted one for her birthday so we were going there to get her present. I had no idea what it was going to be like, it is awesome. You pick your animal, stuff it, they sew it up, fluff it and accessorize. You also name it and get an official birth certificate.
I recommend it to anyone who hasn't been there.

This is Jared's bear his name is Stuffy. The machine stopped working and Jared's was hand stuffed, he helped stuff it. He built the lego background as soon as we got home.

This is Cassie with her bear Haley.

Here I am, my mom insisted on buying me an elephant, I couldn't resist.
His name is Rebel and his shirt has a guitar on it and says rock-n-roll.
He is so soft and fluffy and cute and cuddly, I think he is my cutest elephant yet and I have alot.

Fun, fun, fun :)

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Coverage :: liberal media

  2. Cynical :: I can be at times

  3. Gust :: of wind

  4. Improvised :: when you have to work with something and don't have all of the right ingredients

  5. V :: Vendetta

  6. Guests :: I have several coming tomorrow

  7. Brutal :: honesty

  8. Grant :: God grant me serenity...

  9. Pull :: my leg, it's all a nightmare, I will wake up

  10. Streaming :: video

Luna Nina

Friday, November 07, 2008

A very scary incident

My day has been rocked for sure.

I was taking a vitamin that I always take and it got stuck at the back of my throat.

I started choking, I couldn't breathe. My older boys came in and slapped my back and Kieran put his arms around me trying to get me to cough it up.

I threw up but the vitamin was never found, it obviously found the right pipe.

I have never choked before, I thought I was going to die, I couldn't swallow or breathe.

I finally was able to breathe, I was shaking, I went into a panic.

My throat is sore and my chest hurts and I have been having a hard time breathing all day. It's the sensation of feeling like I'm not breathing even though I really am.

A few hours later I was afraid to eat and I got really hungry so I ate soup, I figured that was safe.

I still feel messed up but talk about being THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE!!!!!!

I have never experienced anything like that and I pray I never will again.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Thankful Wednesday

I have seen a few bloggers do this and it's a good idea.

1. I'm thankful for the sunshine and beautiful weather we are having.

2. I'm thankful for my husband and kids.

3. I'm thankful that today we have food, clothing and shelter.

4. I'm thankful my husband has a job.

5. I'm thankful for my friends.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Printable electoral map

You can go to C-span and click on electoral map and it will bring up a pdf file.

During the last election they gave away huge posters and we had a blast with it. This election you have to go and print it out.

Anyway it's neat to see the population and the electoral votes per state.

We will keep track at what color each state votes and how many electoral votes each candidate gets.

Happy Election Day

A few thoughts

Today was an interesting day, I didn't sleep well and woke up a few times before I actually got up. I woke up anxious, my heart was beating too fast and it felt like my blood pressure was elevated. I got up feeling like crap because I was tired and started my day that way.

Today I had to go to the lab to get my blood drawn for a retest because there was a screw up with a test they ran. I wasn't consciously nervous but my subconscious has a mind of it's own. This happens all the time, if I have to go to the doctor or make a phone call or go somewhere that I've never been. My heart rate was really high this afternoon but my BP was normal. I felt like crap though.

I don't know how to control my subconscious, I don't know how to control anxiety and how my body responds to stress. I can't afford $150/hr for a therapy session with my doctor, I had to cancel my check up this week because I need to get my bill paid down before I add more to it.

So much of my responsiveness is engrained and reactionary and out of my control. Trust me when my heart is beating fast and I try to *relax* it actually gets higher.

When I wake up feeling this way then I was obviously thinking about stuff while I was sleeping.

Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I need help!!! I need to figure out how to deal with this stuff on a conscious level so my subconscious cooperates.

I'm sure I'm anxious about the election too, gee ya think?!

I am holding out HOPE that the majority of the American people do NOT want socialism. I am putting faith in them to vote for freedom and against big government.

I don't get why people are all gaga over Obama, he creeps me out. He stands for bigger government and higher taxes and redistribution of wealth instead of creating wealth. Not to mention he is a liar.

I don't know when the belief that the government will take care of you and owes you a living came from. I don't understand why some people want to sit on their ass while others work hard. I just don't understand why some people aren't proud to be an American. If you are voting Obama because of abortion or gay rights you are really missing the BIG picture.

I do understand why some people are fed up with the 2 party system, so am I. I don't believe that this is the election to vote third party in. It is too critical, yes we need to stand up for what we believe in and protest the audacity of the government.

I am pretty much Libertarian, I want a small government that protects our borders and keeps us safe from terrorists.

I believe that the federal government is way TOO big and needs to be scaled way back. We have lost so many freedoms and we have gained so many social programs.

More control needs to be handed back to the states and that includes issues like abortion. I'm not even going there right now.

If you are not proud to be an American, if you are not patriotic, if you do not believe in the constitution and do not believe that you live in the greatest country on earth than I say leave.

I'm not kidding, get the fuck out.

Michelle Obama was never proud to be an American, if you aren't happy leave.

Freedom isn't free.

Socialism and oppression don't work.

The democrats need poor people to keep them poor, if you want more from life, if you desire to work hard and spread your wealth as you see fit then please do the right thing when you go to the polls.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

*'Twas the night before elections*

I didn't write this, if you know who did I'll give proper credit.

*'Twas the night before elections*
*And all through the town*
*Tempers were flaring*
*Emotions all up and down!*

*I, in my bathrobe*
*With a dog in my lap*
*Had cut off the TV*
*Tired of political crap.*

*When all of a sudden*
*There arose such a noise*
*I peered out of my window*
*And saw Obama and his boys*

*They had come for my wallet*
*They wanted my pay*
*To give it to the others*
*Who had not worked a day!*
*He snatched up my money*
*And quick as a flash*
*Jumped back on his bandwagon*
*With all of my stash*
*He then rallied his henchmen*
*Who were pulling his cart*
*I could tell they were out*
*To tear my country apart!*
*'On Fannie, on Freddie, *
*On Biden and Ayers!*
*On Acorn, On Pelosi'*
*He screamed at the pairs!*
*They took off for his cause*
*And as he flew out of sight*
*I heard him laugh at the nation*
*That wouldn't stand up and fight!*
*So I leave you to think*
*On this one final note-*

McCain and *Palin* on SNL

These are funny :)

Opening Skit

Weekend Update

Jefferson quote

A good government is one "which shall restrain men from injuring one another, shall leave them otherwise free to regulate their own pursuits of industry and improvement, and shall not take from the mouth of labor the bread that it has earned.

- Thomas Jefferson (1743-1826) (inaugural address)

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. In love :: I'm in love with my best friend

  2. Be my guest :: go ahead make my day

  3. Number one :: we had a beagle named number one, also Star Trek the next generation comes to mind

  4. Swallowed whole :: pills are hard for me to swallow whole

  5. 50 percent :: more than 50% of America better vote for freedom

  6. Made in :: the good ole USA

  7. Supplement :: my income

  8. Right for :: Jason is right for me

  9. Endless :: time is endless

  10. Ceramic :: tile

Luna Nina

kid's say

The kids have been eating candy since we got home last night.

They had dumped it all out on the table to sort and trade, the older kids picked theirs up and took it to their rooms. Jared left his out on the table and kept coming back and grabbing something and going off to play.

Late last night he said, "Will someone pick that candy up because everytime I see it, it makes me want to eat it."

Today was Cassie's last soccer game and it's also her 9th birthday. They had donuts and cupcakes after the game.

We came home and the kids still went to their candy stash and nibbled throughout the day.

A little while ago Cassie asked me if I dared her to not eat candy for two days. I paused a moment and then said sure I dare you. She said, "Then please take it and hide it so I don't know where it is."

I just thought these were funny things they said, I think they are realizing their personal limits.

We are having her birthday party next weekend when grandma is here from Texas.