Friday, February 01, 2008

Why sleep?

I'm starting to wonder, I mean really wonder...Why?

If it is supposed to make you rested and refreshed then it's pointless for me. I do not ever feel rested or refreshed after sleeping. As a matter of fact on the nights I really sleep, I dream and I remember many dreams and I wake up totally wiped out like I got hit by a truck or something.

When I am tired I try to go to bed, like last night, I couldn't fall asleep for a few hours. I think it is just best for me to stay up until 4am before I try to sleep because I'm awake until then anyway.

Today I am really wiped out, it's obvious that I lost my spunk for a few days, you know it happens every month :)

I layed down just to take a break and you know I'm in pain... I literally relaxed and almost fell asleep before the kids came in. I felt 10x worse and more like a zombie after lying down.

I will probably keep trying to figure this stuff out ya know. I am my best late at night, it's like I come alive after midnight, it's just so bizarre.

I think it's just part of me and I need to stop trying to figure myself out. If I can't I don't expect anyone else to.


justjuls said...

Isn't that one of the best parts of life? I was watching LOST the other day and thought - from a writer's perspective - they aren't being very consistent with their character's personalities - and then I realized - we are all pretty unpredictable. The day someone can figure me out - I will have given up on enjoying life and faded to gray.
Hang in there this week - you'll be back to yourself in no time.
As far as the sleep thing - I don't know what to tell ya. So sorry.

Lisa said...

Do you have fibromyalgia??

Anonymous said...

I used ot wonder that al lthe time pre-children...I felt it was an enormous waste of time. Josh (9) thinks the same, only he gotthere eyars and years before me. Still, since having kids, and espeically now with a wakeful toddler, I *love* sleep...I want it sooo bad :0)
I thought dh was a bit crazy wanting to buy the biggest bed there is, and spend more on it than our car...but I htink he's on to something!