Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Alternate Universe

I must live in some other place. I just did the dishes at 3 am...

I had a messed up day, my allergies and sinuses were going haywire, my ears were plugged and my head felt like it was going to explode. I do not remember my allergies being this bad last year. I muddled through and had extra kids here, I guess school is out, who knew, our days are no different.

My hormones have started up, the bad ones, the no patience, getting cranky, I see the mess hormones. UGH! I just ordered progesterone cream but it probably won't do much this month, maybe it will help a little, one can hope I don't need two weeks of PMS.

Jared is exploding left and right and I'm not in the peaceful mode, it makes me reactionary, it sucks, sometimes reality sucks. He seems to do well for awhile and then explode for awhile, it's his growth process. I really wish I could help him through it but he doesn't want help and as dh says *you can't help him, I turned out fine*.... UH ok. Those guys are two peas in a pod, I love them so much!
The process can be painful at times but worth the effort to parent from the child's perspective, with him not against him.

I'll admit it though I was really pissed earlier and had to walk... err...storm off...

Keep it real, right?!

My little guy has taught me so much, and I am on this journey with my children, sometimes I don't have all the answers. I'm having a communication breakdown with Brenny also, don't know how to fix it, we just need to figure it out.

Life is learning, we learn together how to communicate effectively.

I was talking with my friend who has traveled a bit and she said I would love Spain because they had dinner at 10:30 pm and then stayed up partying until the sun came up... Yeah so I guess I live on Spain's time :)

It doesn't matter when I get up or when I go to bed the hours are the same.

Jared and I just hugged and made up, it's all good!


justjuls said...

Don't you hate it when it feels so fractured. It is always when it is the hardest to deal with it. Of course.
But you're so right - we are learning as we live together. I can so resonate with that right now. I think the best I can ever do for my kids is let them know how extraordinarily fallible I can be!

justjuls said...

Oh yeah - drink.more.wine.

Heather said...

I love your honesty. Thanks.

Pittsburgh Midwife said...

I think we must be living in the same alternate universe!