Dizzy

While I'm getting over that nasty virus now my allergies are full blown and I'm so dizzy.

I don't know how much writing I'll be doing, I want to reply to some emails and blog but I don't know what I'll do.

Thanks to all who sent prayers, well wishes and virtual goodies!

nice thought

There is a friendly older gentleman that works in the organic department at Kroger, he always greets us nicely.

Today he asked if if school was almost out, I told him that we homeschooled, he said oh that's right...

*So you get to go out and about whenever you want then*

Yep that pretty much sums it up.

Unconscious Mutterings

This is last weeks, apparently I was too unconscious to think...

1. Concentration :: Cards



2. Relocated :: Witness Protection Program



3. Clot :: Blood



4. Joints :: Smoke em if you got em



5. Satellite :: Dish



6. Money back :: Guarantee



7. Kittens :: meow



8. Shady :: venture



9. Drain :: sink



10. Stroke :: heat

Luna Nina

CSI

Any CSI fans?

I was blown away by the ending...no pun intended.

Although I was always suspicious of the undersheriff.

May 15th Deadline

One more day to sign up for the Revolution Money Exchange promotion.

Just click on the icon at the top right corner of the page and it will take you to the website.

I'm all for competition and this is another company like Paypal.

It is real, I got my $25 and I just received $10 for one referral. Thank you to whoever took the plunge and signed up.

amusing?

The mere fact that I'm living isn't proof that I was born.

She says as she finds her birth certificate to get her driver's license.

No worries mate

Hakuna Matata!
What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata!
Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!


Jared was watching Timon and Pumba and I realized that I really need to embrace this attitude.

I'm sick of expecting things that don't come to fruition.
I'm sick of stress.
I'm sick of worrying.

Actually I'm sick...

Caught something and had a rough day.

So new attitude, one of hope and positive thinking...

Well I can try, again!

It sucks to be such a realist, I just need to deal without worry or expectation.

It is what it is and I have to accept it and move on.

Today's word

I get the word of the day, surprised? My husband gets a kick out of it because I always use *big* words and my kids speak that way too.

So here is today's word:


Merriam-Webster’sWord of the Day
May 12

iconoclast

\eye-KAH-nuh-klast\
noun


Meaning
1 : a person who destroys religious images or opposes their veneration

*2 : a person who attacks settled beliefs or institutions


OOOHHHLALA I may just be an iconoclast!!!

Break down those walls!

Get out of that box!

LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is great, unschooling is awesome, let's all be who we are and enjoy the journey.

Live, laugh, love, learn and always Rock on!!!

Everyday is Mother's Day

It is for me anyway...

I know that everyday I am blessed because I am a mother, because I have children.

If you would have told me 17 years ago that I would have 4 kids I would've asked you what kind of drugs you were taking.

I spent most of my young life taking care of other people's kids and two of those were my siblings. I was already a *mother* and needed a break. I also was very career oriented and I didn't think a family would fit in.

I wanted my Hotel and I had my goals and expectations and plans set, there wasn't going to be kids. I knew that one career was it I could not give my all to both.

I also had endometriosis and didn't think I could have babies. I begged for a hysterectomy but they don't routinely do that to 19 yr olds.

So after I went to college awhile I changed my mind and I had to have a baby.
No easy task but what in my life has been easy????

So after drug induced menopause twice and fertility drugs I have four beautiful babies.

I am blessed and anyone who has a child is blessed, children are awesome.

Embrace the journey, embrace those children, they grow up way too fast.

Motherhood rocks!

Parenting Peacefully

If you want to live peacefully make the most peaceful choices.

Peace is all about choices.

Choose to breathe consciously.
Choose understanding over ignorance.
Choose to make choices.
Choose awareness over oblivion.
Make choices based on the principles you live by.

~Sandra Dodd

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Track :: race


2. Snake :: slimy, slithering, hissing, striking, poison, gives me the willies


3. Assignment :: on assignment, like a job


4. Blockbuster :: video


5. Bombastic :: wow that's awesome


6. Adventure :: our life


7. First time :: sex
8. Aged :: cheese


9. Grip :: Get a grip


10. Shortcut :: backroads

Want to play? get your words at Luna Nina

Growing Ups

You know how we call adults *grown ups*

Jared calls them *growing ups*

I think he is very perceptive.

I don't think that one day you are just a grown up, I mean we are always learning and growing. I believe if you stop growing you stop living even if you are alive.

Here's to all of the growing ups reading this :)

Reali-T check

What is real?

What really matters?

Life is short and childhood is even shorter.

The kids are great, unschooling rocks, they learn like they breathe, it's so natural. If you haven't experienced this then you have no idea what I'm talking about.

Kids who have never been schooled just learn by doing, they learn by living.

It's their mother who has issues...

Really I'm fine, I'm good, I'm starting another hormonal episode... When flo doesn't show you just move on, I moved on I was fine...until... I lost it, I cried I broke down and cried last night. It's not really in my character, you know the one I play on TV.

I'm Miss strong, Miss reality, I'm such a realist, it is what it is so get over it already. Seriously I am like that so don't expect a whole lot of sympathy from me. Nobody gives me any either, actually some of this is personality but it also stems from my past when nobody gave a shit.

So Miss hot flash, mood swing, what is wrong with my body, what are you gonna do about it???

Who knows, I've got too many thoughts, too many causes, too many soapboxes, too much email, too many blogs, too many lists...

I also have absolutely no point to this post, what do you want I think I'm pre- menstrual again but who the hell knows?

I'll just keep learning from my kids, playing with my kids and living each day the best I can.

What has she been thinking about?

In case anyone wonders why I've been quiet it's because my mind is thinking and contemplating and I'm having a hard time writing it down.

Some of these thoughts are old ones resurfaced, some are new, some are raw, but I have to feel what I feel in order to figure stuff out.

A few things on my mind lately are homeschooling, unschooling, secular, Christian, what's the difference, spanking(NOT) but why do people do that, what would Jesus really do, my faith, my beliefs, my principles, this country, politics and of course the damaging effects of public school.

I'm not sure what I'll touch on in this post I guess I'll go where my mind takes me. I'll probably go take a bath and come back and finish this.

A few days ago I was really thinking about unschooling as secular or Christian because many people will use that distinction, so I was thinking about what the REAL difference is. In my mind I believe that Christians base their life on faith, well so do I, but I am not a Christian unschooler and I don't homeschool for religious reasons. I just happen to be a Christian and an unschooler it's how I live, it's not even a defined thing except online. Some people call it *secular unschooling* and *Christian unschooling* I just don't do that, unschooling is unschooling, many different people with many different beliefs unschool.

There are many more faiths and religions out there that unschool so secular or Christian doesn't begin to define it.

I'm not trying to define anything I really don't like many labels, some serve a purpose especially when we are looking for people who think like we do or at least have an idea of where we are coming from. The only problem with that is stereotypes, I hate stereotypes but when you meet people who make them true it can be frustrating. It can make you not want to associate yourself with a certain label or group because of what others believe about them whether it's true or not.

I run a yahoo group of unschooling Christians, so I know they are out there.
When I talk to people who aren't Christian and hear some experiences they have had with Christians it makes me want to scream. Spanking and control are big issues, I do not believe in spanking. As a matter of fact I firmly believe that hitting is wrong and unacceptable and nobody has the right to hit someone else.

Children are smacked everyday and some are guised under Christian parental authority, that makes me ill, it makes me not want to be lumped in with those people. I may be losing some readers here but it's how I feel it's how I have always felt.

If an adult hits an adult they can press charges but if a child is hit they have to take it...

I wasn't spanked as a child but I was beat up as a teen and mentally , emotionally and verbally abused.

I am a believer in God and Jesus, I love the Lord I pray daily I have faith and I will just live on that faith. I will not live by religious indoctrination and I will not take any man's interpretation of the Bible as gospel. God knows my heart and he loves me because he created me. I am free to be ME, Christ has set me free.

My kids are free, we live and learn without rules and punishment but with respect and faith.

Profound

This is from the Always Unschooled yahoo group.

Radical unschooling is Not about Raising kids. Its about living with our children Right Now. Our children are not unfinished products, future activists or stooges to The Man, our kids are Who They Are right now.

That's where unschooling happens.

If you are thinking in terms of Raising your children you aren't looking at the human beings living in your home, you are looking at future adults - and those are pure imagination on your part.

Is it possible to live with our kids Right Now *and* hold the whole world in our minds at the same time?

Yes. Its challenging, but its possible.

~Meredith

Six words

1. Write the title to your own memoir using 6 words.
2. Post it on your blog.
3. Link to the person that tagged you.
4. Tag five more blogs.

Jewls tagged me and the idea is to come up with 6 words that describe you right now.

It's hard to come up with just one, I have had a few good ones and some I can't post :)


Free to be who I am

I'll give you one more:

Living in a freakin hormonal whirlwind

Share six words that describe you.

Penny
Heather
Jenny
April
Deanne

Any else want to participate I won't tag all of you :)

Unconscious Mutterings

1. State :: of being


2. Lively :: happy


3. Valet :: parking


4. Traction :: tires


5. Official :: investigation


6. Red hot :: chili peppers (the band)


7. Powder :: baby


8. Replies :: email


9. Flagrant :: abuse of power


10. Tweet :: rockin Robin

Want to play? Get your words Luna Nina

Kids talking

Tonight Cassie told me that the girls down the street don't want her to tell me stuff.

They are 7 years old and already keep secrets from their parents.

I am so thankful that Cass talks to me, she tells me things, asks me things whatever it is she knows it's alright to talk to me.

I am trying so hard to build the foundation so when she is a teen we will already have the communication open.

I just hugged her and thanked her for telling me. She knows I'm not like her friends parents, this way of parenting is so worth the effort.

Can we just stay home?

We got home tonight and Jared said, "let's just not go anywhere again except the store and our friends' house."

Is it just us or do others feel cranky, tired and out of sorts when they are gone all day?

We went to girl scouts today, my first time driving there, yes it's freeway and stuff, it's not close.

It wasn't the driving, it was me, I felt all swirly inside and just plain off.

Cassie wanted to go because she hasn't gone in a few months and the siblings can go and play too. So my boys played with some other kids during the meeting.

My dear friend offered to have me follow her to her house which was close and then go home from there. That worked out well because I didn't want to drive in 5:00 pm traffic and there were a few accidents right near where I would have to go.

We hung out for a little bit talking about our hormones, it's not just me :)
It sure is great to have someone to talk to, she is awesome and our kids are good friends.

I felt really anxious today, all day, still do, I think this increased anxiety is hormone related too.

I'm back on my remedy and looking into starting something else next month.

I don't want to feel like this!!!

We are staying home tomorrow.

Nucking Futs!

Can everything be blamed on hormones?????