Forts

Cassie and Jared have been playing together a lot lately which is good since I've been sick.


Cassie's fort with Boomer too.

Jared's fort.

They were having so much fun. They kept changing the styles and making different ones. These were the only pictures I took though.

Notice the strand of legos, those are the lights.

NaBloPoMo

I've decided to participate in the December blogroll to post everyday of the month.

The theme for December is THANKS!
Blogging on the theme is not required for inclusion on the blogroll.

Here's the link

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Sleepy :: me


2. Thanksgiving :: apple pie


3. Fifteen :: 3x5


4. Authority :: question authority


5. Bangs :: hair
   
6. Curled :: up in a ball


7. Young man :: my son


8. Surprised :: wow


9. Mistake :: we all make mistakes


10. Handle it :: just deal

Boring! Well I have a cold, that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Luna Nina

It's all good

I have been so absorbed lately with my hormonal issues that I haven't been doing much blogging. Hell after my political rantings I'm trying to figure out how to get back to unschooling.

I mean our lives haven't changed, we live and learn everyday. We follow our interests, we read, play, watch tv, play games, create, explore, imagine, draw, build, cook, clean, live, laugh and love.

We work through our differences and work on respecting each other. I admit this isn't always easy especially when one child is just being tough and not wanting to see the other side. With everything in life we work through it.

Kids are so funny, Jared still sleeps with us and we asked him yesterday when we get him a bed does he want to share a room with his brothers or his sister. He looked at us and as serious as he could said, "We'll discuss this later."

Jason and I just laughed, it was so funny.

Hmmmm do you think he has heard that before?

I am so thankful to have such an awesome husband and kids.

I am so blessed!

They put up with my stuff.

Although I can't quite control my stuff lately, you know crying for no reason is really a pain...

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Spit it out :: SAY IT!



2. Shadow :: of the day



3. Database :: computer



4. Expression :: WTF?



5. Boss :: Who's the boss?



6. Baby :: doll



7. Mystic :: pizza



8. Kate :: and Leopold



9. Boobies :: man's favorite toy



10. Raid :: ant and roach spray

Luna Nina

You know you are a hormonal freak when...

You burst out crying for no apparant reason.

Anyone seen The Holiday with Cameron Diaz?

That's me, I don't cry easy, I would go through the motions and try so hard but nothing would come out.

Well for the past few days I just start crying, ugh this is so out of character for me.

You can go from laughing to crying to snapping at your husband to being impatient with your kids at the drop of a hat.

Oh you are hungry again!

You're kidding right?

Feed yourself!

You crave salt.

You have anxiety.

You feel like you are freaking out.

You have blood pressure surges.

The clutter is getting to you.

You have cleaning spurts.

You have bitching spurts.

You wonder what the hell is wrong with you.

You drop things.

You run into things.

You can't remember shit.

You are an emotional roller coaster.

You get hot flashes. But never when you are cold and really want one.

Peri-menopause anyone?

I welcome been there done that advice or I'm with you support.

Pass the chocolate and don't forget the wine.

My dear husband told me to get a glass of wine, go take a hot bath and don't tell the kids. This was after I started bawling for no apparant reason a couple hours ago. He told me I was at my peak. Hallelujah get me off this damn mountain I need sanity, not some freakin roller coaster ride.

I should just embrace this right, enjoy the ride, life is a journey.

Welcome to my journey friends I bet you wish I was back on politics, HA HA probably not those of you on the opposite side!

I am TOO YOUNG FOR THIS!

As I look back I have been slowly progressing since I was 34, the last month has been the worst, I'm only 37.

I'm sure I have many more wonderful symptoms to share with you but right now I just want to get my damn period and move on!

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Please stop :: so I can get off



2. Move over :: get out of my way



3. Sweet as :: molasses
   
   
4. Bet :: gamble



5. Mad about :: you



6. It’s over :: "It's Already over now" Song by Red



7. Intend to :: I intend to be free



8. Blame :: don't blame me



9. Jefferson :: Starship, Airplane, Thomas, George



10. Heartless :: vindictive

Luna Nina

An evening with moms

The homeschool group that I have been going to has decided to do a moms night once a month.

Tonight we met at a coffee shop that had live music.

I hardly ever leave the house without Jared, he brings new meaning to attachment parenting, but he is almost 6 1/2 and he has let me leave him twice this month.

I told him that just the moms would be there, no kids, he asked me about the dads. I told him the dads were staying home with the kids so the moms could meet.

He was ok with it :)

We had a great time, good conversation, we are still getting to know each other.

It's so funny because all I have ever done is try to make social networks for my kids but in the process I have met some great ladies.

We all get along and we are learning more about each other and accepting where we are at in life.

It was fun, I had a cafe mocha for my inquiring friends, if you can mix coffee and chocolate you are on to something wonderful.

Jared called me because I told him I would be an hour and it turned into two, we were just conversing freely.

He was so cute and told me he missed me and informed me that I missed Numb3rs, one of my favorite shows.

I told him it was ok, I would watch it online and I would be home soon.

It's nice to make friends, I am so alone in my beliefs sometimes that I can forget there are others out there who may just understand where I'm coming from.

Cassie is so excited because she is making new friends with all of the girls, she has been surrounded by boys all of her life.

Life is good, chocolate, coffee, friends, wine, I'm a happy camper :)

Now if my hormones would cooperate... LOL!

I won't bore you, I'm working on it, my hormones cause my blood pressure surges.

Oh joy!

two pictures

We went to the zoo today, I love the zoo, I get to see all the cool animals and the best part is the elephants of course.


Here we are, all six of us. Jason is usually taking the picture so this time we got him in the picture. If you look above his head you see the giraffe, that guy was a ham, we were talking to him and he came right up to us and was posing. It's funny that he is in this picture.

This is me and my mom.

Yes she is young and beautiful :)

It's great to have her here visiting.

Fun workshop

We went to Build-a-Bear workshop for the first time. Cassie wanted one for her birthday so we were going there to get her present. I had no idea what it was going to be like, it is awesome. You pick your animal, stuff it, they sew it up, fluff it and accessorize. You also name it and get an official birth certificate.
I recommend it to anyone who hasn't been there.



This is Jared's bear his name is Stuffy. The machine stopped working and Jared's was hand stuffed, he helped stuff it. He built the lego background as soon as we got home.

This is Cassie with her bear Haley.

Here I am, my mom insisted on buying me an elephant, I couldn't resist.

His name is Rebel and his shirt has a guitar on it and says rock-n-roll.

He is so soft and fluffy and cute and cuddly, I think he is my cutest elephant yet and I have alot.

Fun, fun, fun :)

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Coverage :: liberal media


2. Cynical :: I can be at times


3. Gust :: of wind


4. Improvised :: when you have to work with something and don't have all of the right ingredients


5. V :: Vendetta


6. Guests :: I have several coming tomorrow


7. Brutal :: honesty


8. Grant :: God grant me serenity...


9. Pull :: my leg, it's all a nightmare, I will wake up


10. Streaming :: video

Luna Nina

A very scary incident

My day has been rocked for sure.

I was taking a vitamin that I always take and it got stuck at the back of my throat.

I started choking, I couldn't breathe. My older boys came in and slapped my back and Kieran put his arms around me trying to get me to cough it up.

I threw up but the vitamin was never found, it obviously found the right pipe.

I have never choked before, I thought I was going to die, I couldn't swallow or breathe.

I finally was able to breathe, I was shaking, I went into a panic.

My throat is sore and my chest hurts and I have been having a hard time breathing all day. It's the sensation of feeling like I'm not breathing even though I really am.

A few hours later I was afraid to eat and I got really hungry so I ate soup, I figured that was safe.

I still feel messed up but talk about being THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE!!!!!!

I have never experienced anything like that and I pray I never will again.

Thankful Wednesday

I have seen a few bloggers do this and it's a good idea.

1. I'm thankful for the sunshine and beautiful weather we are having.

2. I'm thankful for my husband and kids.

3. I'm thankful that today we have food, clothing and shelter.

4. I'm thankful my husband has a job.

5. I'm thankful for my friends.

Printable electoral map

You can go to C-span and click on electoral map and it will bring up a pdf file.

During the last election they gave away huge posters and we had a blast with it. This election you have to go and print it out.

Anyway it's neat to see the population and the electoral votes per state.

We will keep track at what color each state votes and how many electoral votes each candidate gets.

Happy Election Day

A few thoughts

Today was an interesting day, I didn't sleep well and woke up a few times before I actually got up. I woke up anxious, my heart was beating too fast and it felt like my blood pressure was elevated. I got up feeling like crap because I was tired and started my day that way.

Today I had to go to the lab to get my blood drawn for a retest because there was a screw up with a test they ran. I wasn't consciously nervous but my subconscious has a mind of it's own. This happens all the time, if I have to go to the doctor or make a phone call or go somewhere that I've never been. My heart rate was really high this afternoon but my BP was normal. I felt like crap though.

I don't know how to control my subconscious, I don't know how to control anxiety and how my body responds to stress. I can't afford $150/hr for a therapy session with my doctor, I had to cancel my check up this week because I need to get my bill paid down before I add more to it.

So much of my responsiveness is engrained and reactionary and out of my control. Trust me when my heart is beating fast and I try to *relax* it actually gets higher.

When I wake up feeling this way then I was obviously thinking about stuff while I was sleeping.

Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I need help!!! I need to figure out how to deal with this stuff on a conscious level so my subconscious cooperates.

I'm sure I'm anxious about the election too, gee ya think?!

I am holding out HOPE that the majority of the American people do NOT want socialism. I am putting faith in them to vote for freedom and against big government.

I don't get why people are all gaga over Obama, he creeps me out. He stands for bigger government and higher taxes and redistribution of wealth instead of creating wealth. Not to mention he is a liar.

I don't know when the belief that the government will take care of you and owes you a living came from. I don't understand why some people want to sit on their ass while others work hard. I just don't understand why some people aren't proud to be an American. If you are voting Obama because of abortion or gay rights you are really missing the BIG picture.

I do understand why some people are fed up with the 2 party system, so am I. I don't believe that this is the election to vote third party in. It is too critical, yes we need to stand up for what we believe in and protest the audacity of the government.

I am pretty much Libertarian, I want a small government that protects our borders and keeps us safe from terrorists.

I believe that the federal government is way TOO big and needs to be scaled way back. We have lost so many freedoms and we have gained so many social programs.

More control needs to be handed back to the states and that includes issues like abortion. I'm not even going there right now.

If you are not proud to be an American, if you are not patriotic, if you do not believe in the constitution and do not believe that you live in the greatest country on earth than I say leave.

I'm not kidding, get the fuck out.

Michelle Obama was never proud to be an American, if you aren't happy leave.

Freedom isn't free.

Socialism and oppression don't work.

The democrats need poor people to keep them poor, if you want more from life, if you desire to work hard and spread your wealth as you see fit then please do the right thing when you go to the polls.

Obama can't make up his mind

PA GOP AD

*'Twas the night before elections*

I didn't write this, if you know who did I'll give proper credit.

*'Twas the night before elections*
*And all through the town*
*Tempers were flaring*
*Emotions all up and down!*

**
*I, in my bathrobe*
*With a dog in my lap*
*Had cut off the TV*
*Tired of political crap.*

**
*When all of a sudden*
*There arose such a noise*
*I peered out of my window*
*And saw Obama and his boys*

**
*They had come for my wallet*
*They wanted my pay*
*To give it to the others*
*Who had not worked a day!*
**
*He snatched up my money*
*And quick as a flash*
*Jumped back on his bandwagon*
*With all of my stash*
**
*He then rallied his henchmen*
*Who were pulling his cart*
*I could tell they were out*
*To tear my country apart!*
**
*'On Fannie, on Freddie, *
*On Biden and Ayers!*
*On Acorn, On Pelosi'*
*He screamed at the pairs!*
**
*They took off for his cause*
*And as he flew out of sight*
*I heard him laugh at the nation*
*That wouldn't stand up and fight!*
**
*So I leave you to think*
*On this one final note-*
*IF YOU DON'T WANT SOCIALISM*
*GET OUT AND VOTE!!!!*

McCain and *Palin* on SNL

These are funny :)

Opening Skit

Weekend Update

Jefferson quote

A good government is one "which shall restrain men from injuring one another, shall leave them otherwise free to regulate their own pursuits of industry and improvement, and shall not take from the mouth of labor the bread that it has earned.

- Thomas Jefferson (1743-1826) (inaugural address)

Unconscious Mutterings

1. In love :: I'm in love with my best friend


2. Be my guest :: go ahead make my day


3. Number one :: we had a beagle named number one, also Star Trek the next generation comes to mind


4. Swallowed whole :: pills are hard for me to swallow whole


5. 50 percent :: more than 50% of America better vote for freedom


6. Made in :: the good ole USA


7. Supplement :: my income


8. Right for :: Jason is right for me


9. Endless :: time is endless


10. Ceramic :: tile

Luna Nina

kid's say

The kids have been eating candy since we got home last night.

They had dumped it all out on the table to sort and trade, the older kids picked theirs up and took it to their rooms. Jared left his out on the table and kept coming back and grabbing something and going off to play.

Late last night he said, "Will someone pick that candy up because everytime I see it, it makes me want to eat it."

Today was Cassie's last soccer game and it's also her 9th birthday. They had donuts and cupcakes after the game.

We came home and the kids still went to their candy stash and nibbled throughout the day.

A little while ago Cassie asked me if I dared her to not eat candy for two days. I paused a moment and then said sure I dare you. She said, "Then please take it and hide it so I don't know where it is."

I just thought these were funny things they said, I think they are realizing their personal limits.

We are having her birthday party next weekend when grandma is here from Texas.

Halloween

Here they are before trick or treating.

Jason has on Cassie's witch hair wig, she said it bothered her so he put it on and was being an old British rockstar. He went out like that too with sunglasses on and an accent.

When we got home they dumped out all the candy and ate a lot, made some trades and packed it up for later.

unreal

Mild thoughts

I just got out of the tub and I do spend time in there thinking. I try to relax and I do, the hot water helps me tremendously. Many times I *write* in my head and can't ever do it justice in writing when I get out.

I also am so *on* when I'm pre-menstrual, there are many yucky things about that but my thoughts are clear, I'm funny and I'm so serious on my soapboxes that I'm awesome. You wouldn't know that in my writing, as I have stated this isn't my strong suit, I am actively working on expressing my thoughts in the written word. My blog gets the very watered down version of what I really think and it's probably best that way.

Last weekend I was spot on, I was discussing politics, racism and unschooling at a friend's house. There were other people there that don't really know me and I told my friend that I hope I didn't scare them. She said no it was fine they just don't know you and now they do :)

So now my estrogen surge is over, this is a good thing. I took my blood pressure before I went to the bath and it was 97/66 with a heart rate of 61 and I wasn't even sitting that long, I've been up and down all night.

A far cry from a week ago at 143/98, HR 103, wow I'm A-OK right now. Although I did get a spike yesterday due to the cell phone fiasco it was nothing compared to the estrogen.

Thank you Deanne for putting things in perspective and for caring so much. I admit that I am a little pissed that the phone company won't wipe out all of the charges. I believe they should and my husband and I are having a tif over it. He says it's not their fault well shit it isn't ours, we didn't make the damn charges...

Ok I'm getting all pissed off again I guess I need to let it go I just wonder where the money is coming from to pay for this loser charging up our bill.
Maybe I should call Barack, he'll take care of it...

Ok I stopped myself from progressing I said this was mild.

I took the kids to the homeschool park day, they dressed up and we all brought snacks to share. The kids had a great time and so did the moms. I just met these ladies a few weeks ago and they are really nice. You know last week I was a hormonal high blood pressure mess.

So now we have one more soccer game at an ungodly hour and Cassie's birthday and my mom is coming to visit.

Also Jason said he wants to get the house in sellable condition and move out of the city for more land and a smaller mortgage.

We have lots to do to make that a reality.

Houses in our neighborhood sell very fast, I'm sure it's the level, you know middle income. Our house needed a complete overhaul and we are probably half way through it. We haven't done much with it in the past year so now it's time.

It's probably good that I haven't unpacked everything.

I still have my clothes in a box, well the box is broken out the one side, even my clothes won't go in the box, LOL! I have never been in the box, I just can't conform to anyone or anything, I am definitely unique, I am me, I got that going for me :)

If you could talk to me for a while you would know what I mean.

So this is probably boring you to tears, sometimes I am better when I'm fired up.

Civics lesson

***I did not write this*
Sorry for the confusion I stated it at the end.

The most eye-opening civics lesson I ever had was while teaching third grade. The presidential election was heating up and some of the children showed an interest. I decided we would have an election for a class president. We would choose our nominees. They would make a campaign speech and the class would vote.

To simplify the process, candidates were nominated by other class members. We discussed what kinds of characteristics these students should have. We got many nominations and from those, Jamie and Olivia were picked to run for the top spot.

The class had done a great job in their selections. Both candidates were good kids. I thought Jamie might have an advantage because he got lots of parental support. I had never seen Olivia’s mother. The day arrived when they were to make their speeches. Jamie went first. He had specific ideas about how to make our class a better place. He ended by promising to do his very best. Every one applauded.

He sat down and Olivia came to the podium. Her speech was concise. She said, “If you will vote for me, I will give you ice cream.” She sat down. The class went wild. “Yes! Yes! We want ice cream.”

She surely would say more. She did not have to. A discussion followed. How did she plan to pay for the ice cream? She wasn’t sure. Would her parents buy it or would the class pay for it. She didn’t know. The class really didn’t care. All they were thinking about was ice cream. Jamie was forgotten. Olivia won by a land slide.

Every time Barack Obama opens his mouth he offers ice cream, and fifty percent of America reacts like nine year olds. They want ice cream. The other fifty percent know they’re going to have to feed the cow.

I got this from someone else and don't know who wrote it but it is good.

Violated

We just realized that our business cell phone was stolen, it happened in the past week. Since we are just getting the business started the phone isn't getting much use.

Jason called the phone company and it turns out there are $400 in text messages and downloads in the past week.

This was stolen out of our car, not exactly sure where but I've only been to a handful of places so it could've happened at our house too.

This isn't the first time we have had something stolen from our car or our property.

We work hard and we don't have much and to just have someone take it from you is brutal. We don't steal from others, there is no excuse for stealing.

You know that this society is being bred for entitlement, see what you want and take it. You don't have to work hard to achieve it you are entitled to it!

It is sad line of bullshit for sure.

How are we supposed to cover the costs of a new phone, business cards, advertising and everything that has that phone number on it? We have to pay for this asshole's charges on our phone!

The phone company is working with us but they can't/won't credit it all to us.

The police will come over to take a report, we want this guy caught and arrested and put on his record.

It is unacceptable to take what doesn't belong to you.

Ugh! My blood pressure is going up I have to calm down.

equality?

"I don't care whether you call it socialist or what have you; the left never wants to equalize societies by elevating those at the bottom of the economic ladder. Instead, they want to equalize society by taking from those at the top and making everybody equally miserable near the bottom."

~Rush Limbaugh

The Preamble

Thanks Erica!

We the People

We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

baby squirrel

This weekend our beagle caught and killed a baby squirrel in the backyard. It was really sad because the mama was up in the tree squawking. I actually felt a little sad but Rocky was proud of what he did. He is a hunting dog and he should be proud.

Yesterday this little guy was trying to get in the window, as you can see my windows need to be washed.

He is so cute I wanted to keep him.

Redistribution

This is the real Obama, please be informed before you vote. How could this man take an oath to upold the constitution? He wants to take and take and take until nobody has anything left. Socialism doesn't work, oppressing people doesn't work.

Sunday

Good food.
Good wine.
Good friends.

We are blessed.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Contemplate :: think



2. In the house :: we live
   
   
3. Classical :: music



4. Quest :: for freedom



5. Best friend :: Jason



6. 1991 :: I was 20 years old living in California



7. Never will :: I ever be a liberal democrat



8. Fool :: socialist



9. Unhappy :: sad



10. Best man :: who's the best man for the job

Luna Nina

quick message from Fred Thompson

A little more *me*

My blood pressure really went up so I called the nurse this morning and left a message.

Today was the park day with some homeschoolers and I was trying to relax. I just met a couple of these women and here I was dumping my problems on them... They were really nice, I like them, one mom is getting her BA in alternative medicine and wants to be a midwife.

It was a nice time and it does feel good to meet people that you feel like you can just be yourself around, I don't think I scared them. Of course we didn't talk about too many hot topics, must ease into that.

So we left the park and went to Kroger and then headed home, my heart was racing and I was getting a headache.

I tried to lay down but knew that I had to get Cassie to soccer practice very soon.

The nurse called and confirmed what my dear husband said, it sounds like hormones...

Oh don't worry he always tells me I don't listen to him...

So she gave me a few things to try and also told me to take another BP pill.
I did that right before I left for soccer, I was feeling okay while we were there.
I also had another homeschool mom to chat with and we were talking about hormones because I mentioned peri-menopause and she said that someone else just said that to her.

We had fun, she has a great sense of humor.

When we got home I was feeling *drugged* and finally my BP got down to normal.

Oh my gosh, this is insane, too much estrogen, anyone?!!!

The nurse said this should pass and wants me to keep track of symptoms and dates. I need to make sure I use the progesterone cream religiously and I also am taking Estro-Logic, it's an herbal supplement to balance hormones.

So I'm not crazy I'm just a little hormonal.

I admit to being scared, high blood pressure is scary and it doesn't feel good.

About Me

We interrupt the political news for an important message from our sponsor...

Learning through Living is an unschooling and respectful parenting blog and it is also about me and things that matter to me.

Well now lets talk about me, shall we?

Awhile back I posted an entry asking if everything can be blamed on hormones.

Well I am here to tell you that YES, EVERYTHING can be blamed on hormones!

My husband is a much better keeper of my traits than I am. He tells me that I did the same thing last month. I guess I tend to forget my atrocities from month to month.

The reason I'm writing about this is that the last 3 days I have been extremely bloated, I have digestive issues but this is severe. I also tend to crave salt not sweet, like I want mustard and pickle juice, weird, I know.

The last few days my heart rate has been fast, I've been feeling weird, like anxious, stressed, hyper, and now my blood pressure is elevated.

Some of you know that I found out a few months ago that I have high blood pressure. I am losing weight and exercising, I have lost 24 pounds and my BP has been fine, I am on medication though. My goal is to lose 50 pounds and get off the drugs.

So I have been on meds for at least 2 1/2 months and my BP has been great. I bought a machine and I take it a few times a day.

I guess last month I had a few spikes that I didn't record and now I'm having spikes and Jason says it's my hormones. My doctor believes I'm in peri-menopause and they did say it could affect BP, the last time I was there in August.

I have an appointment Nov. 5th, the day after the world better do the right thing...

Ok so I can't help myself :)

I need to keep track of my symptoms better so that I can see the pattern and relate it to my doc and ease my mind. Now my numbers are not emergent or life threatening but definitely much higher than they should be.

Jason said just take your BP next week and you will see it will be fine, I hope so.

I have to learn to deal with stress better it's one major area that I struggle with.

American patrol report

This is 10 minutes long and is about the lawsuit against Obama because he won't produce his birth certificate.

http://www.americanpatrol.com:80/MISCNEWS/2006-UP/ELECTIONS/2008/OBAMA/OctSurpriseVideo081012.html

International Crisis

"It will not be six months before the world tests Barack Obama like they did John Kennedy. The world is looking. We're about to elect a brilliant 47-year-old senator president of the United States of America. Remember I said it standing here if you don't remember anything else I said. Watch, we're gonna have an international crisis, a generated crisis, to test the mettle of this guy." -- Joe Biden


"Biden to Supporters: 'Gird Your Loins', For the Next President 'It's Like Cleaning Augean Stables'"By Matthew Jaffe ABC News' Political Radar

October 20, 2008

Sen. Joe Biden, D-Del., on Sunday guaranteed that if elected, Sen. Barack Obama., D-Ill., will be tested by an international crisis within his first six months in power and he will need supporters to stand by him as he makes tough, and possibly unpopular, decisions.

"Mark my words," the Democratic vice presidential nominee warned at the second of his two Seattle fundraisers Sunday. "It will not be six months before the world tests Barack Obama like they did John Kennedy. The world is looking. We're about to elect a brilliant 47-year-old senator president of the United States of America. Remember I said it standing here if you don't remember anything else I said. Watch, we're gonna have an international crisis, a generated crisis, to test the mettle of this guy."


"I can give you at least four or five scenarios from where it might originate," Biden said to Emerald City supporters, mentioning the Middle East and Russia as possibilities. "And he's gonna need help. And the kind of help he's gonna need is, he's gonna need you - not financially to help him - we're gonna need you to use your influence, your influence within the community, to stand with him. Because it's not gonna be apparent initially, it's not gonna be apparent that we're right."

Just another reason to not vote for Obama, the terrorists are plotting and waiting to see if he wins.

We are *Joe the Plumber*

Tax cut, laughable

My new friend over at Pasedena closet conservative did a post about Obama's *tax cut*

You have to actually go to Obama's site and it has a small video of untruths and there is a spot to put in your annual income and deductions. It only had 3+ for exemptions, of course we have 6. It also asked for how much we owe on our mortgage , I left that blank. It's not relevant and you know that spyware could be watching, LOL!

Anyhoo it puts up Obama and McCain with a dollar amount next to it. So according to this calculation the difference for us is $3, yes I said $3. Wow Barack, thanks so much, NOT!!!! You can keep it!

We don't even want a tax cut, we just don't want a tax increase and apparantly we have moved into a higher bracket. My husband is making a little bit more than last year, you know every little bit gets taxed my friends.

Some people don't care especially the liberal left wing Hollywood. If Obama really wants to *spread the wealth*, he can share some of his $150,000,000 he raised in September. Why spend all of that money on hate ads for McCain? Give it to the poor Barack, please share it with us...

With our so called bad economy somebody is sure raking in the dough, possibly from unsure sources too, things that make you go hmmmmm....

He is lying, there is no tax break for 95% of Americans when 40% don't even pay taxes.

I am appalled at all of his blind followers, this man is freaking me out, he gives off terrible vibes. Don't be fooled, his change is not the right change, full blown socialism is not the direction this country needs to go.

UGH!

I'm just baffled!

A Liberal Supermajority

Get ready for 'change' we haven't seen since 1965, or 1933.



http://online.wsj.com/article/SB122420205889842989.html

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Magical :: World of Disney



2. Shrimp :: on the barbie (I do not eat shrimp)



3. Project Runway :: a TV show that I have never watched



4. Economy :: isn't as bad as they say and will recover strong, well as long as Obama doesn't win



5. Porch :: swing, front porch, porch light



6. State of affairs :: sad state of affairs in this country right now



7. .com :: internet, that song free credit report .com comes to mind



8. Fifty cents :: two quarters, half dollar



9. Ripping :: tearing us apart



10. Bull :: shit
    

Luna Nina

quote

"Would somebody explain to me how it is that you make poor people rich by making rich people poor?"

Rush Limbaugh

It's not about race part 2

This is appalling and a sad state our country is still in.

This election is about principles and the fundamental differences between the candidates, it's not about race. I can sum it up very simply:

Socialism or Capitalism, you choose.

Obama could be as white as sour cream or purple for all I care and he would not get my vote. Please remember he has a white mother, he is only half black.

McCain could be black or green or blue and he would still get my vote.

I am not a racist, I don't care what color your skin is, if we are going to be friends it's because of the person you are.

So because you are white and vote for McCain you are a racist but if you are black and vote for Obama you aren't.

BULLSHIT!!!!!

Pure and simple.

The right fit...NOT!

I received a Fashion Bug gift card for my birthday and I have been hanging on to it because I have been working on losing weight.

I was ok with clothes for the summer but now that temps are starting to go down I really need some pants. I ordered two pairs and used their sizing chart by my measurements.

My pants arrived today and they are way too BIG!

My husband can't figure out how that is a problem.

Well it is a good thing but it is a problem because I don't have any pants.

I'm going to find where a store is and see if I can exchange them it would cost too much money to return them.

For the inquiring minds, I've lost 22 pounds now, boy it is going slow, but it's going :)

Refrain..who me?

Yes folks it's true, I have been called on refraining from my very strong opinions here. I have refrained all along about public school and mainstream parenting and now politics. I might just need a blog titled Stephanie..Raw and Uncensored because it isn't happening here.

I have held back more than you know, except the few of you who read here and actually know me.

I have been trying to take the attitude of planting seeds and not trying to insult or offend anyone in particular.

As with all public blogs my google hits come from various places searching for different things and they end up here. I know a few blogs I read have posted about the odd hits they get. I do have a few frequent topics that get a lot of readers who aren't unschooling or looking for that kind of message.

My hopes in relating a few of my political beliefs is to plant seeds of doubt in the Obama factor and seeds of hope. We truly can't afford an Obama presidency monitarily or worldwide, I believe terrorists are plotting as we speak.

This post is about the sheer fact that right this minute I have serious PMS, oh yes I do and I'm not even due for a week yet.

My hormones bring on good and bad traits. I am so deliberate in my purpose when it comes to hot buttons and at the same time I have no tolerance for stupidity and little things bother me.

There is an article going around a few of the yahoo groups I'm on about anti- schooling, and while it isn't really unschooling it is hopeful that the message is hitting mainstream America.

Although mainstream America really sucks when it comes to education and parenting and politics... Someone has to get the word out about alternatives to the mainstream.

In the same respect someone has to expose the truth about Obama and all of his associates and plans for socializing and taking over America as we know it and love it.

I am patriotic, I love this country and I love freedom, and I am very Libertarian leaning in my views of government. Although my husband tells me that many of my views are true conservative views. The party I always vote for except for when I voted for Perot needs to find their stones and stand up for what is right.

I believe that Palin has those stones and that is why I like her and that is why she is hated. She has balls, something many men don't have! I have been told many times in my life that I have them too, maybe it's high time I am true to myself even if it makes others uncomfortable.

I respect people who stand up and stand out and buck the system, rock the boat and don't conform!

There are some congressional seats open for this term and I hope that we get people in there who don't take this as a career but take this as working for the people by the people.

Need a laugh?

3 letter word?

Socialism...The Ultimate Dumbing Down of America!

I am truly astonished and wonder when Americans got so lazy.

Since when is it an entitlement to sit on your ass and expect the government to take care of you?

I realize that the government caused this problem in the first place, I believe it goes back to Roosevelt and The New Deal. Possibly even back to Woodrow Wilson. Remember I went to public school so anything of value I have had to learn on my own :)
I'm not a history buff, I have just begun to learn about politics and the process in the last 16 years but even more in the last 8.

While any program could have it's merits in the beginning it gets blown out of proportion and used and abused.

Obama believes in big government, he believes in more taxes and more spending. He stands for all things that are counterproductive to a free market society.

I am in complete disapproval of congress and this *bailout* plan. Wall street and the Dow keeps dropping because the government interfered, they should have stayed out of it, they should have let the market recover on it's own. Of course the government caused that too with affirmitive action for housing, WTF????

If we level the playing field, spread the wealth, take away from those who earn it and give to those who don't, we are producing a society where noone cares and nobody wants to achieve. People will not try to excel because their success will be punished.

Paying taxes is NOT patriotic, it's a crime, a rip off. It is the government stealing from us without our consent and spending our money without our approval.

Obama wants to control the market, he wants more regulation and more taxes and more spending. Like McCain said tonight you can't just throw money at everything and expect to fix it.

Like my pal Reagan said:

" Government is not the solution to our problem, government IS the problem."

I wasn't old enough to vote for Reagan.

Wake up America!

Smell the taxes, smell the intervention, smell more taxes, more laws and more government regulation, hell smell your feet, just seek the truth, embrace reality, please do not send us into full blown socialism. We already have a democratically controlled Congress and it's been that way for 2 years, stick Obama in there and it's all over, life as we know it is gone.

We need more people like Joe the plumber, Jason the mechanic, Travis the electrician, Stacy the contractor, Dave the carpenter, Bob the computer programmer, Jamie the restaurant manager, Lynn the nurse etc. etc. etc.
(I don't know Joe personally but it feels like I do)

Yes, these are real hard working people that I know. I know many more and I am just trying to establish the base for America's workforce.

It's the middle class that drives this country, it's small business owners, it's supply and demand. Obama claims that he will cut taxes for 95% of Americans. Have you read this? Do you know it's a lie? As it is 1/3 of Americans don't even pay taxes, but he wants to send them a check every year.

Small businesses will not be able to afford the taxes, big corporations will leave just like Anheuser-Busch did, I believe they allowed themselves to be sold and are now stationed in Belgium where the taxes are low. More and more companies will leave because of the tax burden that Obama wants to put on them.

What happened to We the people, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness?

The government is supposed to be FOR the people BY the people not for the government by the government.

I am sick of big government, I am sick of social programs, I am sick of lazy ass Americans and hateful left winged liberals.


More to come...

Good ole Joe

Joe the plumber is rocking Barack's world.

If it looks like socialism and smells like socialism...RUN!!!!!!!

so·cial·ism

Any of various theories or systems of social organization in which the means of producing and distributing goods is owned collectively or by a centralized government that often plans and controls the economy.

The stage in Marxist-Leninist theory intermediate between capitalism and communism, in which collective ownership of the economy under the dictatorship of the proletariat has not yet been successfully achieved.

bumper sticker

Real friends

Where to begin?

Tonight we met in person but we have known each other online for 1 1/2 years so it was just like old friends hanging out.

Wow! We just ate and talked and the kids played and it was just so cool.

Julie you are so awesome! I loved just sitting here talking, and your kids are so cool.

Brennan told me that it seemed like he met Kullen before, he wasn't a stranger, he was a kid he already knew.
That speaks volumes coming from Brennan, very comfortable, very real.

Cassie was so excited to meet real live teenage girls and Jared was just excited to meet all of you.

Kieran and Jason had a great time too :)

I love the internet, we would have never met otherwise.

It is so wonderful to know that the person behind those cyber words is a living breathing human being.







Cassie, Kaitlyn, Kendra, Julie, Stephanie, Kullen, Jared

Julie and me :)

All of the kids, we took these right before they left, it was late and everyone was still smiling :)

I don't even know what to say, you guys rock I loved just hangin out and being ourselves.

I keep writing and deleting ...ugh it's 3:18 am and I must get to bed :)

Love ya girlfriend, talk soon!

It's not about race!!!!

Harris a local radio host is being accused of an unpardonable race crime according to his radio station

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Zoo :: elephants


2. Neighborhood :: kids


3. Salute :: military


4. Immortality :: living forever


5. Dominion :: control


6. Rhonda :: help me Rhonda


7. Parties :: political


8. Prince of Darkness :: evil


9. Garbage :: can


10. Standard :: stick shift

Luna Nina

Not exactly

You're Not Exactly a Hippie...

While you're not a hippie, you've got the spirit of one. Like most hippies, you have deep beliefs and unusual interests. You may not buy into hippie fashions, music, or heavy drug use. But at heart, you are a free spirit and suspicious of the status quo.

Are You a Hippie?

In light of the recent CCU thread I decided to do this little quiz thingie :)

I already knew I wasn't a hippie, LOL!

what's happening

Baseball season ended Saturday, my son's team won and ended with a 10 and 2 record. My son had a great experience and is talking about playing in the spring also. We have this week off of soccer because school here is out for a fall break and soccer takes a week off too, go figure. After this week off we have 3 more weeks of soccer.

We are spending our sportsless week cleaning and decluttering. The house has gone to pot and I am doing spring cleaning in the fall.

I have worked really hard the past two days and my body hurts and I'm tired.

There is so much to do!

We will be having a visitor in the next week who I have been waiting to meet for what seems like forever, I will post pictures and give more details when it happens.

Also in early November my mom is coming for 4 days and she is staying with us, she'll be bunking with Cassie. I just cleaned her room today, it usually takes 2 days but I did it in a few hours, wow! She did help a bit too and now she is loving it, she told me she'll try to keep it clean until grandma comes :)

Also my aunt and uncle from NY will be visiting at the same time, they will stay in a hotel nearby.

We will be having Cassie's birthday party when they are all here too.

I have to get my house in order for a party and company and having grandma stay with us.

It's long overdue I have let things go for too long, I used to be so compulsive and my house used to be so clean.

I was sick for so long and then we have been playing sports and it's all I could do to keep up with daily stuff.

It just piled up so much that I have felt overwhelmed and didn't know where to begin.

I am better now and working on getting healthier everyday. I will just do what I can each day to get this house in shape.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Insight :: knowledge



2. Irksome :: people



3. Maybe :: someday



4. Confirmation :: reservation



5. Bib :: drop cloth



6. Stop! :: California, that is how my son says I stop :)



7. Lobster :: Maine



8. Boys :: My house is full of them



9. Fire away :: speak



10. Give up :: defeat

Luna Nina

Just for the heck of it

Go to urban​dicti​onary​.​​ com and type in your answe​r to each quest​ion in the searc​h box, then write​ the FIRST​ defin​ition​ it gives​ you.

1) Your name?​​ Stephanie
The sexiest girl in the world

2) Your age? 37
#1) Number often used in fiction because it is inconspicuous: A prime number greater than 25 but less than 50.

******Just a little side note if you are my age and you write out thirty seven it isn't something that you want to publish.

3) One of your frien​ds?​​ Julie
a girl who talks too much but also very hottt!
omfgzz! shut up julie, your hot, lets make out ;)

5) Favor​ite color​? Red

1) a communist
2) CCC tablet (Coricidin, OTC anti-tussive medicine)
1) "You reds!"
2) "He passed out on 48 reds (!)"

6) Birth​place​?​​ New York
Power that comes from diversity.... Pride that comes from making it to the top....
Nothing like the Big Apple.

7) Month​ of your birth​day?​​ May
cool; sexy; hot
i am so may

8) Last person you talked to? Jason
the only name that can be spelled through 5 months of the year.
J - July
A - August
S- September
O - October
N - November
"Jason is a very unique name"

9) What did you last eat? cake
kilo of cocaine.
"did you cut that cake"

10) Your nickn​ame?​​ Steph
another word for something so incredily beautiful it makes ur heart skip a beat.
chasematic: wow look at that super model!!
C dogg: yer shes steph alrite!!!
Chase: yer il take steph to the candy shop :)

midnight

I decided to refrain from politics after digesting the VP debate and have been playing around at blogthings. I took a handful of quizzes and thought I would post this one. No surprise really, I am a night owl and I come alive after midnight :)

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a night owl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Hearing :: aid



2. Aggression :: violence



3. Charged :: arrested



4. Traveler :: sightseer



5. Hydrate :: drink



6. Detox :: from the indoctrination of compulsary schooling



7. Qualify :: for credit



8. Prison :: school



9. Frontal :: lobe



10. Pep talk :: you go girl!

Luna Nina

Dear, Anonymous...

Your comment has spurred many comments.

I think it's a shame that you don't understand real, natural learning and it's a shame that you judged me and my daughter.

I encourage you to check out unschooling, you obviously are not a homeschooler or if you are, you are the militant school at home type.

There are several unschooling links in my side bar, I hope you explore them.

Not that I have to explain, I figured I would give a little background.

I actually thought Cassie would start reading between 5 and 6 yrs old. She was so into books, I read to her every night. She started to memorize them and *read* herself. As time passed and we didn't do it everyday she forgot the words, I realize that memorization is a part of reading but it's not enough.

As with all of my kids, I read to her, I answered questions, I facilitated and provided an environment conducive to learning. No, I did not *teach* her how to read anymore than I *taught* her how to sit up, crawl or walk. I helped along the way but she did it in her own time frame.

Natural learning is a joy to live and to watch the process unfold.

I have 4 always unschooled kids and two read at age 5 and two read at age 9, if you think it really matters then you don't have a clue.

I did the same thing with all of my kids, they have to be ready, willing and able to make the connections, they have to own the learning and control it. All kids are born with an innate desire to learn and when nurtured it grows and develops into lifelong learning. Schooling and force take away the natural desire and also cause many of today's so called *disabilities*

I encourage anyone reading here to take a long hard look at their own schooling and their own kids and do the research and educate themselves.

I will no longer allow anonymous comments, anyone who is willing to tell me who they are can leave me a comment.

She can read!!!

Cassie just read Green Eggs and Ham to me.

She is so excited she was jumping out of her skin after she read a page with lots of words.

She is almost 9 and this is her accomplishment. We are all happy that she is starting to read but I think she is the happiest and that is what matters.

I have always read to her and helped her out but she just wasn't ready to make the connections. In the past she would forget the same word when she saw it on a different page or a different place.

She did so well tonight, I only had to help her with a couple words.

I am so happy for her :)

Well now all 4 of my unschooled kids are reading !

All in their own time not with force or someone else's agenda!

I'm off to bed, just had to share and obviously learning happens at all hours of the day and night.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Heist :: bank robbery



2. Hack :: computer



3. Dane :: Great



4. Stings :: bees



5. Monkey :: business



6. Junkie :: drug addict



7. Pumped :: tires



8. Brass :: Captain Brass(CSI)



9. Fight! :: put up your dukes



10. Vouch :: verify

Luna Nina

Outta the park

My baby hit a home run today!!!!!
It was so awesome, what a feeling.
Everyone was cheering and going wild for my son.

It was a great game, they played hard but we lost in the end. The team we played was a little older and a lot bigger.

It's a 9 and 10 yr old league but most of Brenny's team are small and just turned 9. Brennan and one other boy are the only 10 yr olds.

Just had to share the excitement!!!!!
WOOHOO Brennan!

Got Gas?

Not that kind!

Our area is out of gas. We went and sat in line tonight and when it was my turn, I was pumping and then it stopped. They ran out of gas while I was pumping!
I was so thankful that I got enough, my husband was 2 cars behind me so he didn't get any. The lady right behind me started crying because she was on fumes, as was I but I got some gas.

I felt so helpless, another lady pulled up and was on E, and then I drove past a row of cars on my way out and told them the gas was gone. The sadness in people's eyes was hard to take and some were obviously pissed off.

Is it just me or does the fact that we have like 3500 oil rigs in the gulf a bad idea. Hello ever heard of hurricanes? They happen every year, duh! Sorry if that number is wrong, I learn so much everyday that I can't keep it all straight.

I'm just glad that nobody is testing me.

I'm also glad that nobody smacks me when I'm cranky or having a bad day! You know what I'm talkin about!

Do you think we should keep gas somewhere else, like the Mississippi? No hurricanes there. Do you think we should have a reserve somewhere for times like this? It's not rocket science, there is a logical way to solve this as with everything else going on in this country.

Logic vs. emotion, I know it's a tough road but for me logic wins hands down, I don't think with my emotions. I don't make political decisions on emotions or a whim, sure I can get emotional about things that matter to me but I am a logical person. Mind over matter, head over heart, that is me.

I won't go all political on ya again!

While we were in line, my son drew lots of cool pictures and Cassie and I played tic-tac-toe. We also read a few books and she read a few pages, she is coming along.

It was real great when we had to pee, Cass and I ran into the store and left Jason to move both vehicles.

All in all not a terrible time except we weren't happy that the cop was letting people go ahead of us that just pulled in while we had been waiting an hour.
Had he directed traffic properly, my husband would have gotten gas and so would that poor lady that was behind me.

Random Thoughts of a Fiery Woman

I'm borrowing Donna's blog name for this post because I'm feeling fiesty and I have way too much going through my mind.

For my sensitive readers this may very well be Rated R, so there's your warning.

Enter at your own risk!


With 2 kids playing team sports we are surrounded by many mainstream parents and public school kids. It is totally obvious the dumbing down of society and it sickens me.

I have witnessed many parents treating their child badly. It happened today and it literally made me feel ill in my gut.

There is a little boy at soccer and I would guess he is 2- 2 1/2 years old. Everytime I have seen him he has been happy and cute and just playing around being a kid. Today was different, he was a little cranky and I think he kicked someone. I wasn't paying attention at the time and I don't know what prompted it. What I did witness was his mother picking him up and holding him and telling him not to hit or kick anyone. Then he squirmed some more and she said that he was going to get a whippin if he didn't stop. He was saying stuff and some of it I couldn't make out. She kept saying things like stop it or I'll hit you at the same time she is telling him not to hit anyone else. The dialogue went on for several minutes, he wouldn't stop squirming and he hit at her leg, just a tap really out of pure frustration because she wouldn't let him down.

Then she told him that he doesn't hit mommy and to tell mommy he's sorry and that he is heading for a whippin. Then he started saying "No bad boy, no bad boy" I get the feeling he has been called a bad boy before. So she finally swat him after threatening it for several minutes and kept demanding an apology.

Apparantly it's whippin for white people and whoopin for black people, how's that for politically correct. I don't care what you call it, I call it ABUSE!

I felt so bad for that little boy....

I have seen him for several weeks now and this behavior is out of character for him. What if he was just tired, or cutting a tooth, or coming down with a cold...
He is in daycare all day as it is, what if he had a bad day but can't verbalize it yet???

Why do parents not realize they are hippocrats? You are not allowed to hit anyone but I can hit you? It's totally fucking absurd!

I felt so bad and helpless, what can I really do in that situation? I suppose I could have said, maybe he is tired or getting sick or something but I was too appalled at the mother's behaviour.

Today on the front page of our little local newspaper was an ad that the commision passed the school budget. It says a local girl stands up for her school, she addressed the commision.
So the schools want more money, where does it come from???

Property owners, of course!

So now our property taxes will be raised to fund the schools.
We don't use the schools and never plan to. Where will we get the money to pay the extra tax????

I just had an epiphany today that public school is a socialist program, I can't believe I never realized it. Our country is so full of socialism I just didn't add school to the mix.

It's high time that we get this country out of high taxes and government funded programs. The government can't fund anything without our tax dollars. Our money that they take without our approval and spend according to their wishes, not ours.

What happened to We The People and Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness? Why do we have so many people who just say the government will take care of me.

I think that we need to return control to the private sector and allow people to decide where their hard earned dollars go.


So many people are on this *change bandwagon*

You bet we need change but not the kind that Obama is talking about, which by the way the man talks alot about nothing. He has no specifics or concrete examples, he speaks a lot of hype and fluff.

I do NOT want MORE socialist programs, I do NOT want higher taxes, I do NOT want the government to regulate my life!!!!

We are a one income family, we do not have health insurance, we barely get by but we do NOT want government run healthcare nor do we expect the government to bail us out of the debt we have incurred. It is ridiculous to expect the government to take care of you.

I don't know what economy Obama lives in but Streisand is throwing him a fund raiser at $28,000 a plate. Hollywood is loaded, Hollywood is full of socialists but they don't want to fund it. If they all put their money where their obnoxious mouths are they could take care of all of the less fortunate in this country.

I do NOT want it and you should be very careful about believing the load of shit he is proposing.

Well I'm tired this turned out pretty mild, you should have heard my thoughts all day, LOL!

Math?

This is from Cassie's wall. Who says unschoolers don't do math? LOL!
She has added to it a few times and I had to get a picture before she washes it off, I found her with the simple green the other day.

She has drawn a few things on her walls and the neighbor told her that she was gonna get a whoopin and that God doesn't like it if you write on the walls.

I just couldn't be quiet on that one, I told her that God doesn't care if you write on the wall and that nobody ever should get a whoopin.

More lies and fear put on kids to make them comply, sad really. What happened to truth and dialogue???

I told Cassie that it was ok to write on the walls because we haven't painted in there yet. We bought this house two years ago and the whole place needed to be redone and it is a work in progress. When we do paint, we plan to make an area with chalkboard paint so they can still draw on the wall without causing any damage.

for my friend

If you feel so inclined please check this out from Jewls

It's an interactive planner called The Master Plan.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Cut the crap :: I say that a lot


2. Scent :: cinnamon


3. Vanishing :: disappear


4. Wetness :: LOL! dare I say it...just guess


5. Cheap :: Jason, as in cheap date, inside joke


6. Badges :: girl scouts


7. Puppy :: dog eyes


8. Problem solver :: I used to be one


9. Gambling :: Reno, NV age 14, yep I did


10. Sophia :: My spanish name in college, we had to do everything in spanish, so I was Sophia Ramirez.

Today

Anyone who knows me knows that I do not do mornings! Well actually I do very early mornings since I am up until 3 or 4 am on most days.

Today Cassie had to be at soccer at 9:30, her game was at 10:30 but it was picture day, and Brenny had to be at baseball at 8:30 am for a 9:00 am game.

Jason took Brenny to baseball and I took Cassie to soccer. We all tried to go to bed early...

I went to bed at 1:30 am and was asleep by 3:00, I woke up at 5:00 and then 7:00, then it was time to get up. PHOOEY!

It was also really HOT here today, in the 90's. I got sunburned a bit too but at least I got my vitamin D.

We got home around noon and I was just so discombobulated, my whole day was messed up. I laid down from 1-3 pm, I just felt like I was comotose, non -functionable.

I had more coffee and got a few things done. That is why I hate getting up early it just shoots my day because I'm toast.

I guess I'm fine now, not sure when I'll go to bed. Don't call me in the morning I'll be sleeping :)

Mornings are just not my thing!

We have 7 more weeks of Saturday morning games...

Laundry

This is what can happen when you don't fold the laundry.
I have loads and loads of clean clothes piling up, we all have to keep digging through to find our clothes.

We have sports every day this week so the pile will still be there, I don't have time to fold. I will however keep washing and adding to the pile.

Me

Jared drew a picture of me :)

One word Meme

Got this from Paige and Jewls

YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD!
Not as easy as you might think.
Now copy or forward to at least 10 people.
Change the answers to suit you and pass it on.
It's really hard to only use one word answers.
Let me know if you're doing one!
I'd love to see your answers!

1. Where is your cell phone? counter
2. Your significant other? awesome
3. Your hair? brown
4. Your mother? nurse
5. Your father? teacher

6. Your favorite thing? freedom
7. Your dream last night? weird
8. Your dream/goal? health
9. The room you're in? dining
10. Your fear? illness

11. Where were you last night? home
12. What you're not? democrat
13. Muffins? blueberry
14. One of your wish list items? maid
15. Where you grew up? scattered

16. The last thing you did? email
17. What are you wearing? clothes
18. Your TV? football
19. Your pets? cute
20. Your computer? dell

21. Your life? great
22. Your mood? great
23. Missing someone? yes
24.Your car? sold
25. Something you're not wearing? underwear

26. Favorite store? internet
27. Your summer? warm
28. Do you love someone? many
29. Your favorite color? red
30. When is the last time you laughed? today

31. Last time you cried? Friday
32. Who will repost this? someone

Rocky

I wasn't talking about my dog but he has been escaping lately. I looked for a picture but they must be on the other computer. He is a cute little beagle with big puppy dog eyes. He keeps getting out of the yard, he comes back, he knows where he lives.

Jason found Rocky at the lake last year, he asked all the people around if he was their dog but nobody claimed him. They were getting ready to leave and he followed them and jumped right into the van. He called me on the way home, I'm bringing something home with me, I knew it was an animal. It wasn't the first time and it won't be the last we are magnets for lost animals.

Our kids are quite attached to the little bugger now so when he gets out they are concerned.

Anyway I was talking about the Rocky movies :)

I love Rocky and it's been years since I've seen them. I did see Rocky Balboa this year and enjoyed it. The kids watched it with me and I told them it would make more sense if they saw the other movies. Right now Comcast has Rocky I-V on demand. Since I was sick this week I had time to watch movies, I watched I-IV and plan to watch V tomorrow night.

I love Rocky, it just makes me feel good and have thoughts of good vs. evil, the underdog achieving, striving to be our best and loving no matter what.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. House :: messy



2. Think :: I am always thinking



3. Clot :: blood



4. Believe me :: please, unschooling rocks



5. Fumigation :: odor



6. Bore :: me to tears



7. Luck :: not much



8. Patient :: not me



9. Tremors :: earthquake



10. Pickles :: dill

Luna Nina

twenty

I have lost 20 pounds now!

Just had to tell ya :)

vote match

This is at vote match

Bob Barr
Libertarian nominee for President; Former Republican Representative (GA-7)

Total 63%






John McCain
Republican nominee for President Biographical Profile

Total 53%


Chuck Baldwin
Contitution Party nominee for President Biographical Profile

Total 45%

Just another example of my beliefs, I knew I was more Libertarian.

Who said

that I was a stick in the mud???

Oh...I did! LOL!

Last week it was flour, they played with dough that didn't rise right, there was flour everywhere.

This started out with Cassie trying to find a deck of cards and turned into throwing them all over the floor and playing in it. I had a few more pics but the neighbors are in it, I'm trying not to post pics of other kids without permission. Since nobody knows I have this blog you can see my dilemma, I know there are pictures of them on here but not lately.

Jason said I need to let my inner child out, it's a start, I'll just let my kids be kids, which I have always done.

Election match up

This is bizarre, I took this test a few months ago with different results. I have no idea what I answered so differently. I do know that every time I take those quizzes my answers vary. I am firm in some areas and not so firm in other areas I guess.

This doesn't solidify my vote, obviously I would never vote for Obama, I'm just doing research, still two months to decide what I'll do.


63% John McCain
58% Mitt Romney
55% Ron Paul
53% Fred Thompson
51% Mike Huckabee
48% Tom Tancredo
48% Rudy Giuliani
40% Bill Richardson
40% Chris Dodd
37% Hillary Clinton
36% Barack Obama
36% Joe Biden
34% John Edwards
28% Mike Gravel
27% Dennis Kucinich

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

potential budget cuts

This little gem is from our local paper and it sets off my radar.

There are proposed budget cuts for public schools, the county commission will decide whether or not to raise property taxes to fund a $95 million schools budget.

The cuts could include athletics, the gifted program, textbooks, new buses and nurses. This article is referencing the nurses.

A family relocated here because of the wonderful school system. They have a special needs son and he has a tube permanently inserted into his throat and it has to be suctioned every 20-30 minutes. This is an invasive procedure that teachers are not allowed to do only nurses. If he doesn't have a nurse he can't go to school.

That kid should not be in public school and the parents relying on the school for that kind of medical attention is just plain mind boggling.

Another parent is concerned about their future and doesn't see how schools can operate. They don't have adequate textbooks and have to use the internet for a lot of assignments.

Here is a gem:

To get her message across to the commission her girls wore shirts that said,
"Please fund my education. I'm worth it."
"Please help me bloom & grow. Fund our school before it's time for me to go."

I guess that I just didn't realize how much stock people put in public school, it really amazes me.
Expecting medical care is astonishing.

We don't even have textbooks, we use the internet...gasp!

Who needs school? Do people really not know that they have choices, that homeschooling is a real viable option?

I do not want my taxes raised. One of the things we love about this area is the low property taxes. They just built a state of the art high school here, it just opened two weeks ago, who funded that?!

No more taxes, no more taxes, did you hear me?

NO MORE TAXES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It shows

The difference that is between me and people who don't think like me.

The neighbor boy was telling me that he asked his mom to buy vitamin water (that is what we buy) instead of gatorade for baseball. I had mentioned about gatorade being full of sodium, artificial dyes and last I knew HFCS. If they have changed their ingredients then I apologize. Anywho, his mom said no. I told him that I'm sorryy and that I really can't say anything about anything because your mom is the opposite of me and you have to listen to her.

He then proceeded to start saying things like if you were my mom....

I wouldn't have to go to school!!!!

He said that about 20 times.

I wouldn't get paddled!!!!

I wouldn't have a bedtime I could stay up as late as I want!

Those were the top three and he said other things too.

He also said something about if he ran away he would come here and his mom said they wouldn't keep you they would call the orphanage...

Don't ya think that parents would want to create an environment that their kids actually liked?

I told him *no comment*
Sometimes I'm afraid to say anything to them but you know what tough shit! They need to know that not everyone is treated like that.

These kids look to me, they ask me questions, they talk to me, I'm guessing they don't do that at home, I can almost guarantee it. Especially since they spend most of their free time at my house.

healing

Friday night my dear husband let me have a therapy session, he is such a trooper.

I hadn't cried since Tuesday for heaven's sake :) In my real life I haven't cried for years, although having babies did soften me up. When I was pregnant I would cry at Hallmark commercials, I thought something was wrong with me.

I talked a lot, he listened, nodded and even spoke briefly, he just listened. I probably just need someone to listen so I feel validated in some way to know that what happened to me and what I think really matters.

Something I said triggered the flood gates and I just cried. It was so good and so bizarre, I'm still trying to figure out why I am having crying jags but I know I need to cry for all the stuff I never did.

I just need to be human, I need to feel things.
I closed off my emotions for so long, I was cold, I really was a snob, I joke about it but I can look back and see that I was harsh.

All I can say is I'm working on figuring out what is holding me back, why am I so controlling of some things? Why I am so uptight and expecting perfection?

I need to live and let go and learn and heal and move on.

I have forgiven my parents but I can't forget. My mom tried to NOT be her mom, I can see the cycle, my mom did do better.

The buck stops here, I am breaking the chain, the ties that bind are no longer relavent.

I have very distant relationships with my parents and I have tried to bridge the gap but it is so huge. I'm closer to my mom than I ever was and it really isn't close but I just can't deal with my dad. I love my parents, but I just don't relate, I am so different from dad that it's a chore to speak. I mean religion, politics, schooling are off limits.

I remember things they did when I was a kid and I wonder if they remember. I hesitate to share any specific events in public.

I'm not here to dwell or bring anyone down, I'm here to heal and be a good example for my children and anyone who can relate to my struggles.

whine

I am sick and I feel lousy!!!!!

My kids were sick this week and I thought I warded it off but now after taking care of them I got it.

BWHAAHAA!!!!!

To top it off I am very hormonal, I don't know if I'm coming or going, everything is 10 times worse than it really is, KWIM?

I skipped my period last month, I've been using progesterone cream since the 12th day of skipping it. Today I've had slight spotting and cramps and just plain pissed off feeling.

I hate being sick, it's all in my head, LOL! Head cold that is, sore throat, runny nose, headache, run down, oh and add a splash of hot flashes in there.

It's so fun to be me :)

If you read this, thanks for letting me whine, I don't do it that often...

I think I'm going to soak in the hottest water possible with a glass of wine and sweat this virus out.